Memories...
Saturday, April 30, 2005
yeah man 3 down, 2 to go. GPS and FPD were ok, glad i didnt waste my time studying them. Actually this sem the modules i took, have made me realize deeply how i realli love PS and enjoy studying it. Right from the start, all the lectures, readings, everything, i feel kinda happy in a way when i study for them. Esp International Relations, which i m more or less confirm venturing into. Since JC, i have oredi enjoyed this field and told myself to pursue this subject. PS1101 kinda made me a little disillusioned, looking back, it prob involves too much political theory which dun interest me that much. But come to IR, wow, my spirits just get lifted when i study it haha.
feeling kinda tired and drained now, and the thought of one more week of studying makes me xian, but hey, at least now i can see the light at the end hah. Everyday i tell myself to look foward, and with Arts Camp looming nearer and nearer, sometimes it just gets me so excited thinking about it. i realize it hasnt been easy carrying the weight of a project on one's shoulders for 6, 7 months, especially when the crunch period hasnt arrived yet. But yet i realli relished the challenge. Haha, well, at least when exams are over, i can really concentrate on the camp.
going home for a warm sat lunch with my mum now. Haha, what i realli need now is a nice massage, a long jog, and a good nap.
Thursday, April 28, 2005
your call made my dae old friend. :p haha, yup, damn glad to know gerard's all fine and well. Just got together with his new girlfriend for one month plus, and apparently having a hell of a time at pasir ris park as we were talking haha! He's got a new job accepted at Hugo Boss, and switching from his current work soon. Feel very happy for him man haha.. He's the man, one of the few, or possibly only guy i listen fully to. It helps that he's much older (heh heh niao u again) and seen much much more of the world than me.
Cant deny that he had a huge influence in my life esp during army times. All the shit and suffering we went thru together in those 2 years, all the fucking guard duties together haha, all the discussions about babes and bikes, all the mahjong sessions, all the countless trainings at SMI, CST, Ops, all the late nights talking about our past, our girlfriends, our dreams and what we intended to do after national service. We had our quarrels, but i suppose its quarrels which make friendships and relationships stronger.
Sometimes when i look back, i realize he was always the one with all the answers. Sometimes he knew i had the answers myself, and made me open my eyes and see them clearly.
Haha, guess we grew up together in a special sort of way, esp during my turbulent 18-20 years old, not a boy, but not yet a real man. He was a great man, someone whom i look up to fondly and with respect.
Heh, fuck u man. See or not, dedicate one whole fucking column to u, hope that u fucking read it. Happy belated birthdae again! (shall not announce yr age loud ahhaha)
which also reminds me. Haha, reservist date => 1st June. Everyone's surprising looking foward to it man haha..guess we all miss each other in a special type of way, not gay love, but brotherly love eh.
Whenever i see all my army frenz around in uni, hao jie jie, you you e evil monkey, small chick, mr f, giant, the mole, (fat farmer, da niao and woosie head in ntu), ernie the zhu1 tou2 pi2 selling pork at taka, we just seem to be so constrained man haha! It feels kinda funny, esp when we all share so much obscene, personal jokes and own lingo which cant be displayed in public in order to conform to the "civilian world" and not drift into deviance.
Nmind, come 1st june, we shall unleash the past again.
We are intending to meet up before that date first, plan how we going to go in together with all our long hair haha. Till then, cya guys. :p
Wednesday, April 27, 2005
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Tuesday, April 26, 2005
was at the carpark below the atm machine this morning..when i saw this couple at a flashy bike beside my wife. Thought it was quite normal, until i realize that the girl was e one who owns the bike, and giving the guy a ride. Cool.
always find girls who ride zai. Respect them. There was once i was at nuh the carpark, and i saw this young babe riding a Harley and parked it right in the middle of the road. Attitude problem, but i like. Haha.
My papers are quite spread out, which is good, but also draining. Coz it ends on 5th may, and i have to try and keep my sanity and endurance going. Always believed that exams are not the end of the world, at least in uni.
My bio clock is totally upside down now. I mug from 2 or 3 am everyday till morning 10 or 11 in school. But its effective man, coz i just cant study at home with so much distractions, and funny thoughts spinning thru my mind.
GOOD LUCK EVERYBODY!!! :) DUN WORRY, IT LL BE OVER BEFORE WE ALL KNOW IT!!
Sunday, April 24, 2005
The little girl was standing in the middle of the flight of stairs. She was so adorable, with a little pony tail at the side of her hair, and wearing a light blue dress.Her daddy started walking down the stairs.But she was whining and wailing.Little girl: daddy..u promised not to leave me. Mummy say you are going to buy newspaper first without waiting for me. I dun want.. i dun want you to go without me. (tugs at her father's pants and started to tear)Her Dad: (smiling like a proud dad) nahhh sweetie. How can i leave without you? Come, lets go together ok? (holds her little hand and walk off together)Sweet isnt it? May seem such a simple little incident, but i just find it so sweet. Was walking up to my home when i witnessed the little girl and her dad.
The innocence of childhood and the beauty of fatherly love.
Someday i want to be like the father too. :)
I want to carry my little girl or boy over my shoulders and bring her or him to the zoo.
haha, fucking hell, kena 2 summon in 2 daes, what can i say? Some people are just out to anatgonize the relationship between my wife and i. Just now at 2 am i finally came face to face to the faceless person or carpark attendant who gave me the summon. I was 2 minutes late from stopping him.
Anyway it confirmed what i had in mind all the time: that this people who summon you are indeed FAT and IRRITATING.
Hocky:
excuse me, but isnt sunday free parking? (Looks at my watch)FAT Summoner:
sundae free parking only starts from 7 am. (gives a smug and got-you-now-duckie look)
Saturday, April 23, 2005
HAHAHHAHA, THIS TEST IS SO FUNNY.
DECIDED TO TRY THIS WHEN I GOT SO SICK OF STUDYING SINGAPORE'S MILITARY HISTORY.
TO HELL WITH CANNONS, FORTS, GUNS AND SHIPS.
ORD LOH!
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Athletic - You aren't looking for a couch potato. You seek someone who is active and who keeps her body in top shape.Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living.Sensual - You aren't looking for someone who is sexually repressed. You want someone who is adventurous under the covers. |
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Friday, April 22, 2005
heyyyyy.
diana here!!!!
hock n i are writing hock's blog!! muahahaha.
hock hock juz finish exam.. too tired to blog.
so i blog for him. ahahahahaha.
according to the incredible hock, soci paper mcq was okkkkk..
but e essay was kinda funny.
cannot understand why or how some pple can leave 40 MINS EARLY!!!!!
HOW CANNNN????
juz when i picked up my lousy blue pen n started writing my crap,
these pple leave.
wahhhh.
*the above publication is a copyright of diana, accordin to e incredible hulk.
aside: are u done hock? yes i'm done diana.........ahahahaha. such fun sia. u guys shud try.
add spice to ur borin lives!!!! =)
Thursday, April 21, 2005
countdown begins.
was thinking for a while, how things have changed since the first sem..last time got so many pple staying overnight in school to study together..pple like ken, eunice, junie, diana, yuimin..then we ll all go supper together and talk so much rubbish and cock haha..
sole survivors for supper are suzi, stevie and me.. haha..oh well, times change.
recently i have developed a fetish for hugging suzi..well, he is so huggable haha
Wednesday, April 20, 2005
couldnt stop sneezing during tuition..fuck..hope its not a cold-turning-to-flu-to-fever..thats the last fucking bloody thing i need now
so much to cover and mug, but yet so little time. Will just do my best and let nature take its course. Hah
had a nice little chat with don donny donson donovan doink..donny and i have been thru so many years together haha..sometimes we look back and wonder how great that we are both back here again in NUS Arts..after all these years u are still the nice guy that u always was eh buddy haha..
old frenz like donny keeps me sane in an insane university environment.
Thought about calling other old friends like kai lee and qiu qiu for a chat, but gotta rush off for tuition. Was talking to kailing online the other dae, haha..my, can feel she's grown as well. Wonder hows our other overseas 26th Is..Eu ken, wenqi, hsin ge
Tuesday, April 19, 2005
finally e debate for military history is over..didnt sleep much e whole night coz was preparing for it..hmm..guess it paid off in a way, coz our group did reasonably well in the debate..but at last its over
listening to nice music now...very soothing..
was going home when it suddenly rained so heavily..felt like the heaviest rain to me this entire year..i was drenched to the bone..every part of my body was wet..didnt help that upper bukit timah road seems to be slightly flooded.. cold and sorta shivering haha..warm shower was great though..slept almost immediately after i plonked onto my bed
lotsa thoughts..
Monday, April 18, 2005
after one whole year, finally i have cleared my bike instalments!! Hard to believe that i have rided for a year...12 months just flew past lydat haha..
well, i shall be celebrating one year anniversary with my wife on 26th April, 9 days time.. Will prob bring her somewhere nice where we can spend some time alone together.
Another long night ahead.....phew...
Sunday, April 17, 2005
FA CUP SEMI-FINALS COMING UP!!! COME ON UNITED!!!
hasnt been the best of seasons for my beloved team..but supporting a football team is not about just busking in the glory of victories, but sticking with the team in defeats. Hasnt been easy watching the rise of Arsenal and Chelsea increasingly in recent seasons, while watching United stutter. Even Liverpool has gotten into the Champions League semi-finals, damn!!
the immediate future for United doesnt look too bright, esp with Giggs, Keano, Scholesy aging.. And this season's signings have been so disappointing..Winning the Cup will at least be some consolation for a relatively poor season, when we couldnt even manage to push Chelsea all the way till the crunch match at Old Trafford.
But in football just as in life, you just try and try again, season after season. Even when you fall, you pick yourself up, brush off the dirt, and go again.
UH OH i was having supper last night with the rest at fong seng, eating happily when i realize that i ate half an uncooked raw prawn inside a tempura!
*bleahhhh*
damn disgusted man. So much for greed and gluttony. Now my stomach feels kinda funny and the thought of puking came across a number of times.
Saturday, April 16, 2005
have u ever had one nightmare followed immediately by a sweet dream of the same person before...?
happened to me todae...first time in my life that it happened..
i love this song and it means a lot to me..its one of my favourites ever..from the soundtrack of Long Vacation. If you guys havent listened to this song u need to listen to it right now....
What Will I do - Natalie BurksI m not really sure of the words to sayIf only you knew that i feel this wayI wanna give my heart to youShow me the way that you want me toI know for sure there's a place for usI m counting the days till i feel your touchYou come to me when i dream at nightWhen i m with you it will be so rightIf you could see the love in my eyesYou should know that i m on your sideI'd be yoursYou ll be mineOhh What will i do
Friday, April 15, 2005
woke up feeling kinda funny.. decided to go for a refreshing run which cleared my mind a lot...
when i was changing into my running gear and looked out of the window, the sun was all shining and bright. Great for a suntan, i thought.
But yet when i stepped out of my house and got ready to run, the sun suddenly stopped shining, as dark clouds started to gather. Before i knew it, it seemed that it was going to rain. Despite the dark skies though, it never did rain, and sunlight still shone at the end of my jog.
Sometimes in life, dark clouds and tough times will come and go, but thats what life is all about isnt it? Overcoming the dark clouds and seeing the sunlight at the end of the day.
got an A/ A- for my foreign policy essay. Made me very happy coz my efforts paid off and PS being my major and interest, i just feel so glad to do well in it. GPS also got the same grade, so at least it lessens a bit of pressure on my final PS exam papers, and i got a greater incentive to fight and maintain that grade.
varying my studying tactics this sem to see how it would work out. Last sem i seemed to have concentrated too much on the coursepack, and will just try and read every single article, which wasnt that fruitful in the end coz i realized that concepts and understanding are still more important at the end of the day.
Its a brand new day hocky ^_^
Thursday, April 14, 2005
stayed over at clubroom last night, and didnt sleep much again. Was worthwhile though...i did some reflections which cleared up a lot of my thoughts...
apologized to e mc, diana especially and rayner. Felt i owed all of them an apology for the way i behaved the other night. Sometimes i think i am so immature and so emotional, and i realized i was the one to blame for thinking too much and causing so much problems. If i havent acted the way i did that night, perhaps so many things will not have happened.
i hate this aspect of myself very much, i hate it so much.
thank you diana baby for yr letter, and glad that we clarified matters. I still love you and we are still guiding lights for each other yeah diana baby? :)
thank you jia jia for yr little card *pinch pinch* :>
learnt a lot from this episode...
cut my hair yesterdae..dun like it very much personally but oh well at least my head feels lighter.
so tired...going to sleep now....listening to my fave long vacation and love generation songs over, and over again....
Wednesday, April 13, 2005
As the tears dried up, whats left is determination, strength, and a clear conscience.i feel so much pain for you, uncountable pain.
didnt sleep the whole night...
thank you my fren. Finally i realize that i needed to see beyond..beyond whats happening on the surface.
People can say or think what they want. I cannot stop them, and i will not.
i need to be strong and stay focused...for you.
Tuesday, April 12, 2005
........
Hasnt been easy on me.
i still rem an old friend telling me in the past that one of my greatest strengths and weaknesses is that i dun hide my emotions. Strength becoz it means i m sincere and frank with how i feel, instead of acting hypocritically. Weakness becoz it means i get emotional at times, instead of staying calm and cool.
phew..so much thoughts going thru my head tonight. A mixture of feelings. Exams are coming, but yet there are some issues which need to be solved.
Monday, April 11, 2005
exams are coming yep, finally its time to go down and dirty.... *slurp*
Sunday, April 10, 2005
yest night at yuting's house, before we started our mj session, john was on his msn.
He was talking to na na, and we couldnt believe it when she said that her boyfren had died in a bike accident earlier. We didnt noe how to react, didnt noe whether she's joking...We simply carried on with our mj game.
Reality sunk in when i woke up at 7 pm..and my mum showed me a newspaper report of this 20 year old man who died in a bike accident...near my house. He lost control of his bike somehow..and died on the spot when a bus went into him. His name was the same as that of na na' s boyfren, which john told me earlier. Immmediately msged john and told him the news..feel sad for her..feel a mixture of feelings which i cant put down in words.
e past few daes, i have started to feel vulnerable again.
The concrete walls which i have strived so hard to build up around me to protect myself, to prevent further hurt, seems to have been torn down bit by bit. But yet i know in order to move foward, these walls have to be knocked down.
"If you love someone, let her go. If she returns to you, it was meant to be. If she don't, her love was never yours to begin with" -- Unknown
Saturday, April 09, 2005
hmmm...can i realli find what i have been looking for???? *tear my hair out* ARGGGHHH
mahjong tonight HAHAHA, one last hurrah before i start to hibernate and mug next week
everything tasted so sweet for me todae..every single thing. Words alone cant express how i feel lah.
Had a great time with han, peh, mao, yiming, jieming and xueying whacking everything in our path and getting into our own little warcraft world haha! There's this thing with boys and computer games hee :p just like with boys and football, boys and cars/bikes. We get into our own little world and behave like little kids all over again.
Ancient cavemen hunt together for male bonding. Modern men cant hunt, so we do the next closest thing: We pretend to be ancient cavemen hunting together and blasting every damn thing in our path. (ala Counterstrike, Warcraft, Red Alert blah blah blah endless list)
Ancient cavemen sit around the campfire at night, talking about tales of the hunt. Modern men cant build a campfire in the middle of a HDB estate, so we do the next closest thing: We pretend to be ancient cavemen, huddling around a TV showing football drinking beer, grunting for our fave team, and cursing vulgarities.
Ancient cavemen ride their mammoths or sabretooth tigers (haha) around from village to village, picking up the most fertile cavegirls. Modern men drive around in their flashy cars and bikes from club to club, picking up the hottest babes from Double O all the way to Zouk.
So u see, modern men havent changed much from ancient cavemen. We are still simple creatures, if u cavegirls can understand us.
HAHA.
Manz, i m so glad to be a man.
ROAAAARRRR!!!!!
Friday, April 08, 2005
there are moments in life a person lives for.. tonight i had mine.. finally.
Never been so happy for the past 8 months. ^_^ Thank you.....
If tonight is a dream, i dun ever want to wake up from it.
Thursday, April 07, 2005
haha, my bio clock starting to shift upside down again in prep for the study period for exams...
glad that he is feeling much better and looking much more fine :) glad that our long talk yest wasnt in vain...and glad that i finally see where exactly you are coming from. Sad though..that your friendship has been compromised becoz of this incident...
went for the PS career seminar talk yest..which was damn fruitful lah. At least it confirmed what i had suspected all along and what my sis told me, a basic degree is only your passport in the private sector. What comes next and how high u can climb depends not on results. Everyone now has a degree, and one must know how to sell yourself to prospective employers.
Food for thought from this old bird speaking at the panel for private sector: He asked all of us to ponder why is that the managing director of Hewlett Packard, the second largest tech-product company in the world, has a degree in.... Literature! Totally irrelevalant to her current discipline but yet she is able to succeed at HP.
Learnt a lot from the seminar..and got me thinking about a lot of stuff. Able to think more clearly about my future career path haha..
Come on Bayern Munich, score and give it to fucking Chelsea yeah!!
Wednesday, April 06, 2005
had a long talk with him todae, which cleared up a lot of doubts on my mind. I really wish him well and all the best
Tuesday, April 05, 2005
needed my own personal space todae..To reflect on some issues. And no min min, i didnt study at all todae :)
feel sorry for my friend, yet cannot understand why he refuses to listen, refuses to change, refuses to accept the changing environment and circumstances. Respect his decision to stand on his own ground, but yet cannot understand why he refuses to compromise. Realli feel sorry for him as a friend, but yet i cant help but feel that some of the events that happened are a result of his own actions.
i m tired of listening to him anymore. I tried my best to mediate between him and others, but whats the point when i listen to him but he doesnt listen to me?? I dun see the point in trying to persuade him anymore. I m tired. Pride and vengeance have taken over you, have engulfed you my friend.
had a nice little jog just now, before settling down for more arts camp stuff.
Sudden bout of heachache and nauseaousness...maybe i m thinking of too much stuff...?
Monday, April 04, 2005
dear blog, very meaningful sunday for me..went to pay respects to my deceased grandfather and grandmother. Brought back a lot a lot of memories..my grandfather was very very very nice and caring of me in the past..but being a turbulent and rebellious kid that i was, there were a number of occasions when i was very rude to him..and i still regret them until this dae, but i m sure he understands that i was just a stupid kid then, and that i didnt mean what i said last time.
thought about my dad's 2nd brother too, wondering where in the world he is now, with his family...last time when my grandfather passed away, they actually caused damn lot of trouble over who takes over his will, possessions etc..bloody hell..they were only concerned with money rather than my grandfather's welfare..still make my blood boil todae when i think of what they did to my family. I was only a kid then, and i rem them saying very very nasty things about my parents.
i still rem them until this dae. hmm..lets just say i had quite a turbulent childhood lah..just glad that we have cut ties with that other group of the family tree. In fact, ever since my grandfather's funeral more than 10 years ago i havent seen them until this dae.
when i was in sec 1, i got into an argument with my classmate. It is ok to insult one another, but never one person's mum. He did that, so i just stood up in the middle of the class and punched him right across the face. His spectacles flew across the classroom and landed right at the legs of the teacher, Miss Yeo. haha..damn drama lah..needless to say, i got into quite a bit of punishment in return.
on a brighter note, one of my elder cousins getting married in november! haha, he's 33 this year, and his fiancee's 37, 4 years older, so mayb he does go for older women haha..anyway damn happy for them lah..we were talking about girls and settling down..and we talked about the topic of religion coming into relationships. Just kinda wondering, isnt it quite sad that some girls in the world set religion as being part of a boyfriend criteria? sometimes its also coz of the family being very strict or devoted to their religion, such that they cannot accept a boyfriend of different religion. I just feel that sometimes girls miss out on many potential partners when they put in the thinking "my boyfren must be a Christian or Catholic as well, in order to connect with me spiritually". At least to me, love should transcend the boundary of religion.
think my brother faced such a dilemma recently (haha yes, we are talking again and things are back to normal). Heard from my mum that he was getting along quite fine with this girl, but becoz of her very strict religious family background, her family was against them being together. haha, yah, then i had a long conversation with my mum, and as expected, she's definitely ok if i have a Christian or Catholic wife next time..my mum quite relak lah, she recognizes though that normally its more of the girl's family side who worry more bout such things.
yup yup, on another note, i gave my wife a good rubbing and shower todae haha! Finally had the time on a relaxing sunday to do all these nitty-gritty stuff..
dear blog, futsal open went well thankfully despite the stupid rain which kept coming and going haha...finally our sports cell projects have come to an end, and i m real happy that now i can really concentrate fully on my baby Arts Camp, when ifg has ended too!
haha...parrt of my heart feels very blissed and fufilled that all those projects which were once only penned on paper were finally put into action and realized from dreams and rhteoric into reality... Arts Open, Bike Quest, Beach Vball, Futsal..happy that Sports Cell brought in a lot of capable and fun people into Arts Club..happy with ifg, becoz i know i have done my best.
Even though we tied with engin for the most no of ifg championships won, me and kumar are proud to have sent teams for almost every single ifg game, something which engin couldnt do..and if squash, volleyball, waterpolo, hockey(women), soccer(women) and track and field(with uk shyam) havent been cancelled at the last minute, i m damn confident we could have won all these sports man!! basket lah all these sports we spent so much time consolidating damn strong teams and in the end cancelled and gave the initiative to engin. Thats why in the end i satisfied with the results. In any case, src has serious organizational problems lah which they really need to sort out before they THINK they can make ifg flourish.
btw, we lost the 3rd 4th placing to law 3-1..damn xian again lah..it just sums up our entire tournament, plenty of possession play, but we lacked a lot of luck! esp in goalkeeping and finshing..
