Memories...
Saturday, December 31, 2005
my colleague eileen offered me the job of bartendering at another place as she saw that i was really keen to learn, and she felt i had the right attitude..but dilemma for me, coz e other place will require much more time and commitment from me which i may not be able to afford. On the other hand, my current workplace is an excellent point to start learning bartendering first..and i m slowly feeling my way around the bar..which i realli feel good about, coz i m learning something new again..
I may smile or laugh along when you guys said that..but inside i was v disappointed. Where was the circle of trust....? And the way u guys said it seem to cheapen my memories..sigh..nmind..know u all are joking only..
Friday, December 30, 2005
Christmas gathering at joy's place was great haha..had a lot of fun and great food!Esp the chocolate-coated fruits and marshmallows..wah biang.
MC chalet was great as well..had a lot of fun, but i was quite irritated with myself that i was feeling unwell during the 2 days..damn flu caused by the rain really gave me a tough time...but newae it was good for everyone to let their hair down and relak..i return to one of my all-time fave places: the beach!! :p yay.. Such a wonderful feeling to be sitting on the sand, listening to the soothing atmosphere, watching the cascading waves and enjoying the sea breeze... I really really really love the beach becoz it really makes me relaxed and lighten up, and think of things in a different manner...and of coz, getting a good tan..
had a long chat with clement black during the bbq..he shared with me this story which was quite interesting haha, and which reminded me again of why i re-run for Arts Club and my 2nd 26th stint... :
There once lived an ageing King who wanted to hand over his throne to one of his 3 sons. Wanting to test them, the king told his sons to search for the most beautiful thing in the world, and present it to him.
After some time, the 1st son came back, and presented an exotic flower to his father, saying that he found this flower in the fields, and felt that it was the most beautiful thing in the world. His father was impressed, but wanted to wait for the other two sons.
The 2nd son came back soon after, and presented a unique and somewhat glowing pebble to the king. He had found it under a remote water fall, and felt that it was the most beautiful thing in the world. Again, the king was impressed, but decided to hold on again.
Finally the 3rd son returned, but surprising, with empty hands. The king was mystified, and asked hurriedly for an explanation. The 3rd son then said this:
"Dear Father, I once saw this most exotic flower in the Shire Fields, but decided not to pluck it for you, because the flower will only look beautiful in the fields but not alone...I then came across this unique and glowing pebble under the Gondor Waterfalls, but decided against bringing it to you, because the pebble will only look beautiful with the waterfall, but not alone...."
The King then asked, :
"Son, so to you, what is the most beautiful thing you have brought back, or have you given up the search totally?"
Following which, the 3rd son replied:
"Father, the most beautiful thing in the world which i wish to present to you is my memories, my memories of the times i scoured across the lands searching for this elusive beautiful thing, my memories of the adventures i had, my memories of the lessons i learnt along the way which made me stronger, my memories of the times when i thought i would fall but pick myself up again, my memories of my companions who went through thick and thin with me, for without them i would never have been able to return here safely to you today."
"Father, sometimes in life what matters are the intangibles, the memories, which is the most beautiful thing in the world."
The 3rd son became the new king.
Monday, December 26, 2005
btw, thank you BOBBY, DIANA BABY, NING NING for your encouragement and listening to me over the weekend. It means so much to me. Thank you guanjie, jingyi for yr xmas cards, and all those who sent regards. I appreciate it :)
and to afian, yeah man. One day we ll strike it rich. And successful. Mark my words.
MERRY CHRISTMAS AND A HAPPY BOXING DAE TO ALL!!!! :)
this is the time of the year to be jolly and happy..and season to get new handphones!! haha yay i got a new phone! sony ericsson k700i!! and i got it for only $48 after trade in..think its a real good deal man..
studies wise i hit my target of 3.5 this sem, right smack on the spot..and i m happy bout it, considering the amount of stuff i have been thru, esp during the earlier part of the sem when going thru re-running and elections, and settling the com down... the debate in my mind of whether to do honours will continue to rage on i guess..
been a bit down e past week, but heck, i should just pick myself up and go again. A christmas break over the weekend was good for me both physically and mentally, despite working at para on christmas eve.
Tuesday, December 20, 2005
hah i actually felt shy todae...duh
i need a new nice shiny black wallet..
jason's got a new job at a bank..happy for him man, but yet a bit sad that i wont be able to see him at work anymore..dude, i will miss all the times that we shared talking cock and etc, haha..felt the effects on sat when he wasnt around..i was real bored then..and i sorta have an extra responsibility to take care of the other waiters now..
got time we go la kopi k :)
Monday, December 19, 2005
been such a busy week...slept little..
slc for me this year is more about gaining more contacts rather than fun, and strengthening the bond between all the presidents.
So many things have happened this past week...
SHF Show's finally over tonight..was glad that everything went fine...and thought of a lot of things as i rode back home..
somehow no matter how much i do, it never seems to be enough. Disappointed with certain things and certain people...
often i think of the past..and relate back to the present..when i was in others' shoes, did i feel the same way too?..d** m* f*** s**** o* c********** a* w***..
c*******, c*******. T** b**** i* m* s**** l**..f***..
Sigh..
God give me strength.
For i seem to sense it coming.
Thought about what Steven taught me in the past..can realli understand how he feel sometimes..
It has been a long day. I am supposed to be feeling relaxed and have a good rest. But i cant. My mind's wondering about certain things again. Thats the reality of my life now.
I can take work stress very well. I m used to it. But what can affect me is inter-personal relationships, esp those of my frenz, and between my frenz. A wise man once told me that i neednt feel responsible for every single thing that happened, becoz some things are really beyond my control. But sometimes i just cant help feeling responsible becoz of the nature of my job.
From the dae i stepped up till now, i have given my everything. But still it dun seem to be enuff. Everydae i think of how to make the Club greater, how to move the Club to greater heights, how to reach out to more people, how to surpass what the past batches have done, how to lay down a better future and direction for successors, how to bond the com further...
Every single damn day.
Still it dun seem to be enuff.
This is one of those nights.
I should just go and sleep.
Sunday, December 11, 2005
came back to clubroom to settle some admin stuff after my work..yes i cant believe i m in the clubroom at 6am..hmm, to those who say that i have no proposals to do unlike you all, dun compare, becoz i DO have other proposals to do as well, just that i never say. And i have done 3 proposals of what u are doing last year at the same time :)
yesterdae (fri) was a good dae..had a fruitful meeting with Career Centre in the morning and another meeting in the late afternoon..Optimistic about certain things..
yup and at night, me, gerard, seah keng lam (che2 shen2-the god of bike) and lao da met up for kopi..and guess what? lao da s getting married haha...wonderful news..issued us invitation liao..was so happy for him man..also been a long time since a group of us army buddies met up..glad that the rest are doing well in their respective work..and we all have grown in our own different ways...
went to see jingyi's charity carolling at novena square todae in the evening...was wonderful..so proud of her and the group..given that they onli had a few practice sessions in school, and being to deliver such a standard was wonderful..and very heartwarming to witness, haha, esp when all the little kids in the crowd came foward and clap their hands..glad that the public enjoyed it as well...
ya...something struck me in my heart during that moment when they were carolling, which kept me pondering...the same feeling which struck me at the end of Arts Open when everyone was taking the mass photo..i cant define it exactly..hmmm..but nonetheless it was a very sweet and touching feeling..
maybe..maybe...its the feeling of seeing her grow as a Director, becoming stronger, and accomplishing what she set out to do and enjoying herself at the same time..? there s the feeling of bringing joy and meaning to the lives of others as well...
argh i cant pinpoint it exactly lah, really a unique feeling...but hopefully there will be many more of this unique feeling as our term progresses...
had an enjoyable weekend working over the night..sherri and jason can really make me laugh man haha..hmm..there was a scolding by our manager at the end of the night over certain issues, but oh well..part and parcel of working i guess..made me learn a few things as well..
Rode past holland v on my way back..and saw this particular shop which brought me back memories haha..dear old me used to go this shop and buy chocolate jellybeans for a girl i really like last time...haha..i rem there was this time she mentioned that she was hungry..so i rushed down, waited and waited in the morning for the shop to open, and when it finally did, the shopkeeper told me the jellybeans were sold out and i had to wait a few weeks for new stocks!!
kao, could rem how disappointed i was then haha..all these little little sweet things i used to love doing for the people i love..for my first girlfriend back in secondary school, i rem buying this blue rose (coz she loves blue roses) and rushing all the way from my house to kallang stadium to surprise her..back then she was performing and rehearsing for the national dae parade..yah..i waited from evening till midnight i think..standing at the entrance there..just waiting and waiting..was a long story and sadly i ended up that night heartbroken..
there was this other time at suntec city..haha..coz the fountain of wealth there got this laser display show where u can put up messages (not sure if the service's still available)..i was with this other girlfriend then..we were watching the laser show, when i bluffed her that i was going to the toilet, and secretly ran all the way down to the counter there to dedicate a message..then i went back up..and continue chatting with her..and all of a sudden, the announcer mentioned her name out loud and wished her happy birthdae, with the dedication on the laser display...hahaha..could rem the pleasant surprise on her face then..was so happy to see her happy then..
oh well, lots of other fond memories..but i guess those daes of doing all these stuff are over for me, at least for now. Somehow i dun have the energy of doing all these things again..haha, maybe coz my heart is hardened, or i m lazy, and i just feel that i got more important priorities in life now. Jason tells me that what i said is bullshit, and that he believes itz becoz i havent met someone now whom i really like, but i told him in return that even if i did, i probably wont even have the time to manage and juggle everything.
Sometimes u yrself may like a person at the wrong timing, sometimes both guy and girl may fancy each other, but at the wrong timing as well..
Sherri was sharing her story of how a guy friend keeps pestering her for a date, want to know where she is, how is she, why she never reply his sms, then got upset when she never reply blah blah blah..and they are not even together. duh. Fatal mistake. Seen as desperate guy. Became a woosie.
Lesson to note for guys: Never, EVER be a woosie and lose your nan2 ren2 de zun1 yan2, or your dignity as a man. Once you do that, it kills off the attraction from the opposite sex. Your girlfriend will leave you. You will be condemned into the category as "friend" and not "boyfren" material.
Thursday, December 08, 2005
it was a terrible night for all united fans..the loss to benefica..watched e match with sooze and bernard..and really wanted to tear my hair off at the way the team was playing..it was bad..awful..not the kind of United performance fans are used to over the years..where was the fighting spirit, the perseverance so evident in past United teams????
sigh..a night when everything went wrong..united couldnt blame anyone else realli..it was the way we lost which was so disheartening...
yeah..and to cap off a bad night/day, my bike broke down, and i had to spend quite some time repairing it..it was so ironic that i was actually going to drive her to the bike shop for monthly maintainence and then after movin off for 10 metres it broke down..and i had to call the tow vehicle to load her back to the shop..
haha...and to really really cap it off, i got a booking ticket in the night for forgetting to display parking coupon for my bike, after it was repaired..
Tuesday, December 06, 2005
Been doing club stuff for the entire night..and i am still doing it now at 330 am. When i am in this kind of status, i find it hard to stop what i m doing.
I had the privilege of meeting up with student leaders from Bangkok University todae at PGP, as part of an exchange programme, and it was really an enriching experience! :)
Bangkok University is the second top University after Chulalongkorn Uni in Thailand...Realized that there are a lot of similarities between them and us on how they work, common difficulties and problems etc..And they were really friendly haha..We were separated into groups, with us Faculty Club presidents interacting with their Faculty Club presidents..Many of them are real happening and fun-loving people as well..hmm..and i think under their constitution, all their presidents have to be year 4s..yup..so all of them were around my age 21-22..
Exchanged contacts, and one day, if we were to visit Bangkok, they promise to show us around as well haha..There were a few United fans as well, and we talked about Keano leaving, hoping Ballack would come to United etc haha..Yeah, we even talked about clubbing and a whole lot of other interesting stuff..Took quite some pictures, and i actually felt a bit of sadness when we all said our goodbyes haha..Really wonderful group of people..most enriching experience todae :)
Monday, December 05, 2005
hmmm..this is odd...why doesnt reuben's niece like me? I always thought i was a charm with baby kids..
when i look and smile at her, she turns away..
when i offer to shake her hand, she withdraws it with e speed of sound...
when i offer to carry her, she looks at me disgustedly..
when i try to bribe her with the cake, she eats oredi then immediately turns away..
when i stick out my tongue at her like what eileen did, she ignores me.. but she cheekily stuck out her tongue back at eileen..
when i was saying goodbye to her, she couldnt be bothered to touch my head...
hmmm...
no no it cant be....
no no....
it cant be me....
it must be her!!!
she must be too stunned by me...
WAHAHAH, KIDS LOVE ME. HAHAHAHAHHAAHAH...
oh...and i have TONS of meetings to attend this week...and lots of stuff to tie up..and whaddya noe, SLC is coming..yay..brought me back a lot of memories last year.. right lynette and mayi? :) haha..e Chen Shui Bian marvellous skit..and our super float..and all e silly things we did hahaha...yeah man, and we swept every single award that was to be swept!
hope to see my com enjoy themselves as well..and create many of their own SLC memories...this is gonna be a long and busy holidaes.....
THE POLITICS OF CLUBBING PART 2 (anti-thesis on the Barman)
Something happen yesterdae night at my workplace, which made me think twice about my earlier thesis. A big big fight broke out at the dance floor..I m used to seeing scuffles at the club, but this was the biggest i have seen so far. While dancing halfway, 2 groups of guys suddenly start shoving each other, and whaddya noe, started punching and kicking each other. I was e first to spot it, coz i was mingling among the crowd..so i immediately rushed off to inform e bouncers and my manager, and they all came rushing in to break up the fight.
Was quite a violent scene for some who are not used to it. Vulgarities of all sorts of language and vocab shouted by both groups. Chairs were thrown, tables were thrown, glasses were thrown, jugs were thrown, ashtrays were broken..basically whatever they could lay their hands on..then some of them started chasing this guy around the stage..the bouncers had a tough time separating the combatants..was quite a sight seeing so many people fighting..
one of my bouncer friends Kane (and he really looks like the wwf kane) was practically separating the combatants by tossing them aside. He would later on tell me that throwing these people is more effective than talking sense to them..so he was like grab leg, throw, grab leg, throw...
eventually the police arrived..and order was restored..
and all this while....the barman was powerless...
was most certainly an eventful night..it was e most packed night in months since i worked there..and i have seen lots of things so far..
but i really enjoy my work, especially with my colleagues. Getting on closer terms with jason, sherry, alfian, eileen, ines, kane...learn a lot a lot of things from them, esp when we are all from different walks of life..Jason esp, i m real glad to know him, and i m positive he is a great friend worth keeping..he s taught and advised me a lot of things from a more mature perspective, about work, studies, life, love, relationships..everything..Real glad to know that he might be getting married soon next year..at this lowest point of his life, this girl was all e way there for him, and didnt mind him at all...thats what made him change his mind, when just 2 months ago, he told me that he wanted to concentrate on rebuilding his career first before thinking about settling down..
Saturday, December 03, 2005
unfortunately in the real world, it isnt as rosy as what we, when we were children, think. There are bad people out there, demons in each and every single one of us, which when unleashed, causes us to act irrationally and uncharacteristic of ourselves.
Sometimes when i think of certain people, i cant help but pity them, for they think they are all high and mighty, when in fact, they are the lonelinest people in the world. They bitch about others when they themselves forget to look into the mirror every morning, at their own reflection.
On a lighter note, never EVER say a woman is fat. My mum asks me every 2 days whether she s getting fat, so it gives me a lot of training on how to deliver a perfectly politically diplomatic answer.
