Memories...
Wednesday, July 27, 2005
tom O Week begins!! YAY!!!
everytime the dae before the start of a camp or major event, I always try and take one or two hour to myself..like now, when i m at home for a short while..to pysche myself up mentally..the minute i pack my stuff and head down to school..all the action will begin. A little peace to myself can do wonders.....
was mostly at Raghouse yesterdae..and spent the night there..haha..was so tired that i slept on the floor unknowingly after we finished discussing..didnt sleep much the night before thats why i was v tired..early mornings had to go and help be usher for the freshman subject talks..
as everyday passes, i feel that i m getting more and more excited and passionate about Rag..I very much want to see the float shine on Rag Day itself just like the other full-time Raggers..my regret is that this year a lot of freshies dun stay overnight and do Rag unlike last year..perhaps its the venue also..last year with Rag at AS6 it could seem possibly more safe and secure to sleep in..I honestly think Rag is addictive..the more u do it, the more u get absorbed in it, and the more u want to see yr efforts pay off at the end of the day. Maybe thats why people like Sean, Jasmine, Keyou, Big Ben, Haoran, Rid come back to Rag year after year..and i realised that Raggers sacrifice a lot a lot of things..i also regret that i m not a very technically-inclined person somehow and thats why i never liked physics, and subjects which involve shifting of 3D figures and solids hahaha
Rag is a tough project, no doubt about that.
this year we suffer becoz of a lack of Tech leaders..and this is a culmination of previous years not harvesting enough future leaders...but if we can get freshmen like Rachael, Wenhui, Lionel, Reuben to stay and come back next year things will look bright in the future! Coz these freshies are really really good with tech and willing to learn! Yet at the same time they are capable of leading others and i think they will make excellent tech leaders next year.
Anyway i have a feeling O WEEK this year will be much more fun and gonna be a huge success!! Looking foward to it...
Tuesday, July 26, 2005
the past few days have been moving at such a fast pace tat i barely had time to sit down and reflect over stuff..
sat night went for oac meeting..so glad and heartwarming to see 18 of us back haha..its the biggest gathering for us in a few years, coz a lot went overseas..only 4, kailing, wendy, benja, and ade couldnt turn up...i m aiming for the day when every single one of us 22 can meet up again, then maybe we can open the time capsule we created 3 years ago..its still in my house maine maine!! I hid in a nice little corner..Almost 5 years ago when we took over oac we made a pact to keep in touch even after we stepped down, and i m so happy to see that we are still trying to keep to our commitment, even though all of us are busy with our own lives..but at least we are still making the effort!! 3 cheers to 26th!! :)
after tat i rushed down straightaway to school to pack goodie bags for matric fair..the xiong part wasnt the packing, it was the shifting of ONE THOUSAND FIVE HUNDRED bags all the way from club room to SRC..fuckin xiong man..esp when we were damn short of manpower during the dae..it was a blessing that jono, xiaofen, joshua, and all the SATAY people came down to help in the late afternoon. It was really literally work non-stop for almost 24 hours! Only finished packing at sun night 8pm lydat..
its been tiring juggling O Week, MC work, and Rag. Disappointed with certain people whom i felt have not put in their fair share of work for these projects. The time now is 315 am, and i need to be in school by 830 for the subject talks ushering later. Came back from a whole day of matric fair, and then went tuition, before returning to do rag before coming home. I m damn shagged. But Rag needs a lot a lot of help. To anyone reading this, if you are in Arts, do spare some time to go down to the Rag House to help out. Its open 24/7, and we need all the manpower we have.
And i still need to bid.
Friday, July 22, 2005
came back from changi chalet this morning..was with Skylar people..got to know joshua, pingjie, tommy better, very nice guys. Haha, wah lau, there's like numerous outings and bbq gatherings this year..Anyway we had a good time gossiping
earlier on during the dae, was with Bartender Ben from Trottus and Eugene from Arlo..we had a good time talking trash as well..then met jennifer at Rag house..first time talk to her i think, yah, but newae she's full of crap as well ahaha..
Reuben's my fave freshie at the moment..that guy is zai man..solid worker, smart, good pr, funny, and willing to try new things haha...
heard last night that London got bombed again..kao, its shocking and sad to know such things will happen again and again and that they are now a part of our lives. Touch wood, but i do wonder sometimes when will it be Singapore's turn..we are actually quite a vulnerable target coz of the population density and all the high rise buildings..When the time comes, will Singaporeans be ready?
I admire the London people for trying their best to continue with their lives..they are tough people
bidding s going to start soon...in fact round 0 oredi started..my confirmed mods this sem are history 1101, intro to ir, political enquiry....the other 2 i havent confirm yet..was thinking of doin a soci mod, but not sure whether i can write a good soci essay..2 semesters here has taught me to be more shrewd in selecting my modules and when u do the right modules,maybe one-fifth of the battle has oredi been won.
Thursday, July 21, 2005
Arts O Week pre-camp was fun!! It was so heartwarming and made me so glad to see most of the Arts Camp freshies coming back to be councillors for O Week... First time in years i guess that O Week pre-camp is so big and happening ahha..too bad for the damn rain.time flies man..before i know it, one year in uni is almost gone, and pre-camp was the anniversary of me, suzi and chonghan's friendship..the original crazy 3 of us who eventually decided to run for 25th MC together..I didnt sleep much again during the pre-camp days..was busy preparing the wargames..now i know how a programmer really feels like haha..now also in the old Shatin and new House of Satay yay.... :)the best part of O Week pre-camp for me was getting to know the freshies much better and connect at a personal level with them..the Shatinis and Sagirans and the ex-Skylar people ahha..went to the bank the other day and finally settled my financial fees stuff with my sis. At least now that episode is over for me i dun have to keep thinking about it anymore.Got a lot of outings this week with diff groups of frenz. I missed the one with Nana Kambing coz of pre-camp. Sat got oac outing and its Chen Shui Bian Elaine's birthdae as well..Wud prob fly there if i can..xiaopei asked me to run for Sports Club president yesterdae..it was an honour but a shock as well..i think no one's running there..but in any case i dun think i will do a good job in that post for Sports Club when i havent even been involved in the organizing of any Sports Club project at all.been dropping by rag house whenever i can to help out as well..think Jianwu honestly got one of the toughest Arts club projects in this year's Rag, and i respect him a lot for taking up this responsibility and doing the best he could. Fave Cheer of the MomentI GOT A FINGERITS HOTIT CANT BE STOPPEDI GOT A FINGERITS HOTIT CANT BE STOPPEDI GOT A FRONT DIGBACK AHHHHHCANT BE STOPPEDI GOT A FRONT DIGBACK AHHHHHCANT BE STOPPEDI GOT A FINGEROEEEEEEIIIIOEEEEEEEIII*turn around and dig nose*OEEEEEEEIIISATAY!!
Sunday, July 17, 2005
wah, tired man. Just came back from Soci camp todae..then when i reach home, only slept less than an hour before i zoomed out for work at Holidae Inn hotel with Ivanov..worked from 6pm to 2 am..reach home at 3..then tom got O Week stay overnight before pre-camp on mon and tues, and possibly chalet from wed onwards.
Anyway Soci Camp was made happening by some wild councillors like Charmaine, Bobbz, Gina, and Weiliang haha! They are damn good and entertaining! Glad the camp turned out well, and glad that we can help out people like Johan and Jonny in return for their help during Arts Camp.
hahahahah, i m in an urgent need for sleep. But its kinda exciting tat O Week's comiing...And i have a new OG and House yay..Really wanted to be House IC for O Week..coz i m fortunate to have went thru the experience of being a PD for Arts Camp, O com for O Week, councillor for Sports Camp and Soci Camp. The only thing which i havent tried is House IC. Unfortunately i m not allowed to be :(
Glad to see Song Kwang coming back to help Rag..I m confident he can give much expertise in tech and give a morale boost to all the Raggers.
Should i cut my hair? Hmmm...If i wanna return to Holidae Inn to work again, i ll need to cut my hair short.
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Something's wrong with me these few daes. First pointed out by Suzi.. I cant pinpoint it exactly also.
Feel lethargic and xian easily, even though i slept considerably a lot. I was wondering whether it is a accumulation of all the prior weeks of camp planning and activities..including sports camp.
Large extent is problems at home. I cant stand my dad a lot of times. Fucking hell last time he was the one who said to use the cpf scheme to pay my uni fees, now he kao bei change the payment scheme to tuition fees scheme. Fuck lah, give my mum, my sister and my brother problems also. Makes me feel so sick when i think about it.
What the fuck do u want really? If you are so unhappy paying my uni fees, fucking come straight and tell me in the face instead of bitching it to my mum and my sis. You were not there when i was young. You were not there when the family needed you. Sometimes i think its a miracle that i didnt end up in the streets being an ah beng when i was young. If there's one thing u taught me in life, it is to NOT be like you.
Used to say that my temper was bad, but what bout u? Yours is ten times worse. I cant even be bothered to explain to you about certain things. I ll never forget the things u said to me when i was 18.
Mum said that a master once said u ll change eventually. I wonder when that dae would come. Would u realli change???
All these things are making me so irritated at the back of my mind. Plus walloping bills from last month which i need to clear.
Thank you NA NA for that enjoyable dinner and outing just now.
Saturday, July 09, 2005
a quick blog before i go for the meeting at Holland V....haha been so lazy to blog these few days, even though i had more personal time compared to pre-Arts Camp days. Life has been well, moving at a more relaxing pace for me. I definitely have more sleep, my pimples are gone haha, and i have more time to train, jog, chill out with friends.met up with my 26th OAC batch yesterdae at Orchard for dinner...good to see Euken, Wenqi and Hsinn Hui back again. haha..realize that time realli flies man..to think that Wenqi has oredi finished her degree from abroad and going for a PHD next year..We calculated together which means that she will get her PHD by the time she's 27! Zai sia this girl.Actually over the years as i have stated countless times, i realli felt that our batch was a group of very zai people. I believe every single one of them would def go on to become very successful personnel in life. See who's wedding we will go for first lah haha..btw, i saw a lot of the 29th batch girls during Sports Camp and one during Arts Camp..Suzi's SP haha..man what a small worldBeen dropping by Rag this past week everyday to try and help out whatever i can..I realli salute the core group of Raggers who have been devoting so much time and effort into Rag, not just for the past week, but for almost a month liao. When u see people putting in so much of their lives into something, the least one can do is to go down and give them some moral support, to let them know that there are people standing beside them supporting them.Good to see so many freshies and councillors coming back to help out Rag. A lot of these people are the future of Arts Club, and i hope to see as many of them run for MC as possible, and come back to support future projects. Been trying to know as many of them as possible and make them feel welcome, and haha, there are sooooo many names to remember..Hocky cannot wait for NA NA and NO NO outing aahahhahaahhahahahaa..Miss those people a lot. And yes, Bobby, this is specially for you. I had a lot of fun with u at Sports Camp too ahah!Life goes on...... :)
Monday, July 04, 2005
REFLECTIONS ON SPORTS CAMP 2005....Zhonghan asked me on the eve of Arts Camp, whether i was interested in going back to Sports Camp the week after Arts Camp to help out as councillor. I hesitated coz i wasnt sure whether i wud be too tired, and also coz i missed pre-camp.In the end on fri night after Arts camp and sat afternoon, his persistent calls showed me that he was really sincere about asking me and i couldnt say no. And for an old friend like him and Yuzeng, how could i say no man. Besides, i felt that i could take a good break away from Arts Club, from the planning, the activities, even the people, and join back some of my Sports Club frenz and affiliates. I felt that a good clean break from work and allowing myself some space to have some fun as a councillor wud recharge my batteries.It sure did man! :)Joining Sports Camp allowed me to evaluate and compare Arts Camp to it, though the basis for comparison also not v fair. But i was very encouraged to hear virtually all the Arts Camp freshies who went for Sports Camp saying that Artstasy was more fun and memorable for them.This year's freshie cohort is a bit different, esp the girls..hmmm..they were definitely not as wild as last year's batch. Wah piang last year's Sports Camp almost all the OGs were crazy and damn onz lah. Forfeits were fucking crazy, examples include smelling each other's feet and dirty socks, licking each other's armpit hairs filled with Colgate, sticking fingers into each other's nostrils, pouring green tea on a guy's naked torso and getting girls to lick them clean, humping trees and cars, hiding in drains, doing headstands, doing striptease, everything was like damn wild and horny lah e forfeits ahhahahahhaa.This year many were more reserved. And last year got more of those kind of chiongers clubbing people, and real rugged athletes.Sports Club people and affiliates are very different from Arts Club people. i always felt that they were more relak and sporting people, and more similiar to the OAC Instructors i worked with during my OAC days. Haha, no doubt much much more of them speak Chinese..and sometimes i feel i was able to connect to most of them quite easily. haha, maybe its coz i was best freshie last year, and that certainly helped in knowing more people around.Really very easy-going people, less uptight and very fun-loving haha.I had a lot a lot a lot of fun as a normal councillor, with no O Com responsiblities or OGL House ICs responsiblities. Took care of my OG and ra-raing people with all my silly cheers haha, something which i always enjoy doing! Talked a lot of cock here and then and genuinely had a great time, except for the last night for bash unfortunately.Enjoyed making a lot of new frenz, both among the freshies and the councillors haha! Enjoyed seeing the OG bond and grow stronger day by day. Enjoyed all the times spent outdoors at Ubin, Sentosa, and a great tan.Had a lot of fun being part of the NO NO councillors hahaha!! I honestly enjoyed a lot of rapport and senseless wild fun with all the councillors. All the silly things we always do to try and ra ra the freshies. To the NA NA councillors Edwin, Martin, Shaikh, Jiahui, Xiaopei, Ginny, Yingxian, Melissa, and the NE NE Councillors Jason, Cherhao, Bryan, Raine, Tiffany, Hildra, i just wanna say i had a great deal of fun and great company with all of you haha!!Sports Camp is special to me in a different way, and i m so glad now looking back that Han invited me to go. Hmmm, how should i put it..its like a little secret paradise which i know i can go to for a great dose of fun, excitement and breather. Kinda like u know, the beach in the movie Beach Boys? hahahaand i m so glad to know that xiaopei, jiahui, ginny and some of my freshies are in Arts. Which means i m quite sure i ll see these new frenz again when school starts :)Something stirred me at the end of the camp. Cherhao, the Sports Club VP, came up to me and invited me to run for Sports Club MC for the next year. The way he put it across made me feel very honoured and welcome, and i felt it was genuinely sincere. I told him i wud get back to him again, and i honestly havent crossed it out of my mind since the camp ended.Not only him, but a few others also asked me about it during the camp. I thought back to last year, when i actually went to the Sports Club Welcome Tea, even took the forms for running for Sports Club MC. I wanted to run for Sports Club, only to pull out in the end coz i felt i didnt know enough people there and coz i felt there was oredi a very strong clique there. Learnt about the Arts Club Sports Director post and eventually ran for Arts Club MC together with Suzi and Chonghan. The rest is history haha..Sports Club events and activities are real fun, and i m very very confident that i can do a good job in Sports Club MC should i decide to run for it, becoz of my relevant experiences in OAC last time as well as my first year doing so many Uni projects. Most important to me is the people around you when u decide what to run for. Judging by the past 2 Sports Club MCs and Sports Camps, i m pretty sure of the capabilities of the people involved in the MC. And i think the Sports Club people are geninuely cool and realli more relak kind haha..but zai wan, no doubt about that.deep down i have a feeling that a year in Sports Club wud be a fantastic journey..haha nmind i can ask Chermaine more about this. A very warm and fuzzy feeling..i cant explain entirely though..it had to do with a lot of things, including Chermaine's birthdae this yr..the personalities in the club, Sports Camps, Urban Escape last year, Sports Bash, some of their photos at the notice board, little things here and there...A feeling which i forsee will keep me thinking for the next few months probably...for now i just want to concentrate on Arts Club and helping to contribute to a successful and great FOP!! :)
REFLECTIONS ON ARTS CAMP 2005.......wow..what can i say..cant be put down in words realli. Best 5 days of my life, esp at the finale when i saw so many tears being shed and so many touching scenes. Moments like this will stay with you for the rest of your life. Kinda reminded me of OAC YLTC 2001..the 2 biggest projects and camps i have headed in my life.i took so long to pen down all these feelings here..coz it realli took a while for everything to sink in for me, and also coz i went Sports Camp to chill out and help my Sports Club frenz for a week as a councillor.The greatest satisfaction you can get as a PD is to see all the freshies enjoying the camp, and reaching a certain deep level of bond which will tie them across their Uni and future life. To see Arts Club full of life and spirit once again, to see new people coming in to help out and being able to reach them. To see new friendships forged, and see old friendships renewed.To make everyone part of a family again. Be it O Com members, MC members, affiliates, seniors, councillors, House ICs, newcomers, freshies.I was so happy on the last dae. Becoz i realized i achieved what i set out to do and fufilled my dream. Even if there were things which could be improved on, at least i knew i gave my best and i gave absolutely everything that i could have given to the Camp.I couldnt have thanked all the people who helped in this camp one way or another enough. Everyone contributed to the success of the camp- O Com, MC, House ICs, councillors, freshies. If anyone of you is reading this, i would just like to thank you once again.And of coz to all my non-Arts and old friends who gave me the encouragement i needed as a human being. Some of u guys messages realli made my dae when i was down, esp from Aili, Chermaine, Kai Lee, Lynette and Jeryl.My biggest, and possibly only regret during the camp, was the bash night. When i scolded min min. My temper was controlled and stable all the way for the camp only for that one fucking moment on that night. One fucking moment.I opened my big mouth without being fair to her, and i made her so upset. Till todae, i still dunno how to make it up to her completely.At that moment i thought i had to be the bad guy and take over, coz i was worried also that she might be unprepared for all the numerous drunkards creating a lot of problems.I felt fucking terrible on the way back. Esp when i saw her so upset. And when i reached Eusoff Hall to hear Grace's comments, i couldnt control myself. I took my bike and rode off..I just wanted to be alone. I rode to the loading bay at the forum, came down, lied on the ground, and just cried and cried. I couldnt move myself. Just lied there and let the tears flow. Smoking didnt help there and then. Drained. I felt so terrible and at that point of time, i felt like quitting and stepping down from everything once the camp is over, becoz i felt my own friend min min didnt deserve the kind of treatment i gave her, and also coz i asked myself why the fuck am i doing so much just to receive this kind of remark from my own dpd. I fucking cried till i thought i was going to die from crying.Happened on sundae night Day Zero before the camp as well, coz of the Giang incident.Such are the highs and lows of the camp for me.At the end of the day, i m just glad everything came to a nice and happy conclusion. Grace wrote me a very touching letter when the camp ended which clarified things.To see 300 people cheering in front of you, so passionate about their groups and the camp, is something which is priceless..memories which will stay with me till the dae i die realli.Have i managed to change the lives of every single person who came for ARTSTASY 05? I have been asking myself that question everyday ever since the camp ended. And i think the answers wont be found so soon.Raynard once told me that the success of Arts Camp can only be felt long after the camp ended. He told me in March 2005 that even till todae, 2 years after his Camp Feeeesh'03 ended, he is still asking himself whether his camp was a success. Becoz maybe the true success of Arts Camp is valued by how much and how far the freshmen stay together and come back together as true friends for future Arts Club activities, and their future endeavors in life.That to me, measures the real value and success of the camp.And this will be a question i ll be asking myself for the next few years, and a question i would like my future Arts Camp PD to ask him or herself.At least for now, i m glad that before i stepped down at the end of my term, i hoped to have managed to give Arts Club a really solid foundation to groom the next batch of leaders to take over. We have numerous talents at hand, no doubt about that, the real challenge is to convince these people to stay and take over the baton. Thats why i still have unfinished business with O Week, Rag, and e other FOP projects. To make sure we have a collective successful FOP for the freshmen.I promised my president Steven that i ll give him a fucking great camp, i m glad i didnt let him down.I just wanna thank everyone once again for everything deep down...all the 6 months of hard work has paid off.hopefully the memories of the camp will stay with each and every single one of us forever :)
