Memories...
Tuesday, May 31, 2005
Back from clubroom after one whole dae of banner painting. Kudos to Mary, magnificent job u did girl~
Tonight the Arts Camp, O Week and Rag PDs finally have a chance to sit down and informally discuss common problems and solutions, something which has been lacking this year.
dun understand why inviting a friend to come to a camp can make her so pissed off when i have been inviting tons of people these past few weeks to come for Arts Camp. I respect her decision not to come and i never intended to force her at all in the first place, but the tone of the response i got made me quite angry. Whats the point of coming to a camp when you give yr word but yr heart is not there? An initial warm invitation thrown back right in the face.
I did not ask anyone to call her or force her to come for the camp, just to make things very very clear.
I sense a misunderstanding, but i dun want to pursue further. Whats the point when the other party refuses to listen.
Sunday, May 29, 2005
wah, been a while since i surfed some of my frenz blogs, and read some interesting stuff, esp on lynette's blog, where there were some serious male bashing haha. A bit one-sided lah, some of the comments.
you know the feeling of coming back from a vacation, holidae etc back into work or reality? haha, bit xian rite. Thats e feeling i get after coming back from chalet.
somemore i was watching The Beach starring Leonardo diCaprio just now. I watched it years ago when it came out in theatres (i cant even recall when was that, getting old). Anyway its bout this group of people who found a paradise on this tropical Thai island and beach, their own paradise. What happens then is tat they become so obessed with this little world of theirs that they safeguard it furiously at all costs. Even when one of their friends got severely injured, they eventually just threw him in the woods to die, coz they felt his constant moaning and groaning of pain was disturbing the happy atmosphere around them.
Very disturbing movie actually. Also shows that happy times dun necessarily last forever.
Haha, i am still very much in a beach mode though. That dae at East Coast Beach kayaking was damn shiok lah, havent kayaked for quite some time liao man.
Oh man, and i still cant believe liverpool beat milan. I think the feeling will only sink in after a few weeks for me. As a United fan, this hasnt been the best of seasons. To see our bitter rivals chelsea, arsenal and liverpool won all the trophies on hand hasnt been easy to swallow. But looking back, it has been a season dogged of injuries for United, and i m positive we ll come back stronger. I rem the year before United won the treble in 1998, we had a similiar season of disappointment. Let all United fans keep their fingers crossed that Glazer will somehow produce a revival of sorts.
anyway, the reality also struck me and stevie the other day that there wont be any soccer action for the next 3 months!! GASP! by the time the Charity Shield kicks off, the new school sem would have started haha.
first time since exams ended when i surfed thru some of my frenz blogs. Haha dear lynette 's blog is damn interesting lah, filled with guys bashing. Check out this article in her blog:
More than 70% of women undergrads polled say male undergrads are immature and whine a lot
By Medha Lim And Liang Kaixin
May 21, 2005HE whines, moans, won't pick up after himself and even brags that mummy and daddy are paying the bills.
Such is the typical male undergraduate. Or so think his female counterparts, anyway.
More than 70 of 100 female undergraduates recently polled by The New Paper say that the men on campus are immature.
Of the remaining number, half felt that the men were mature and the other half had no opinion.
Apart from a few Singapore Management University students, the women surveyed were split equally between the National University of Singapore and the Nanyang Technological University. They ranged from first-year students to new graduates.
Most seem to be in agreement with Mr Philip Yeo, chairman of the Agency for Science, Technology and Research (A*Star).
In a recent interview with The New Paper, he described some Singapore male undergraduates as whiny. Mr Yeo also said that, despite having undergone National Service, Singapore 'boys' were just not mature enough.
Some seem to think, rather, that they have 'paid their dues' during NS and could now slacken when it comes to project work on campus.
But how do these ex-soldier boys hold up, if they have disagreements with female undergraduates?
Third-year engineering student Tan Xue Fen, 20, said: 'I know of this guy who cried during committee meetings when there were disagreements.'
Female students had expected the 23-year-old to be tougher.
There are, roughly, equal numbers of men and women at NTU, NUS and SMU, according to the 2003 intake of the three universities.
But the women complain that they end up with a much larger workload.
Male undergraduates, they say, think nothing of getting their girlfriends to pick up after them.
New business graduate Yeo Xiaoxuan, 21, said friends of hers would rush over to their boyfriends' dormitory rooms to help with domestic chores.
And many female undergraduates interviewed know of men whose parents drive over to clean up their dormitory rooms.
Oh, and what if there's a load of dirty washing?
The men just lug it home - unless, of course, they have girlfriends.
Miss Tan, the engineering student, said her friends have had to wash their boyfriends' clothes. Even their grimy underwear.
And it doesn't get any better in class, say the women.
The men nudge their female classmates and ask to be fed answers - just so they don't come across sounding stupid.
Third-year biological science student Calista Tan, 21, said: 'They don't dare to take risks. They ask the girls to test the waters when asking professors for advice.'
And don't even bother asking the men for an opinion.
The women say male undergraduates can't even decide on what meal to have.
COMPLAIN, COMPLAIN, COMPLAIN
But the men do excel at one thing, their female counterparts insist.
Whining.
Said Miss Neo Xiao Bin, 22, a third-year communications studies student: 'Most of the guys become full of complaints after NS and they delight in comparing their experiences during that time.
'If we have a war and these guys are the ones to protect us, it'd be quite scary to hear all that complaining.'
Some women had been surprised by the level - or volume, perhaps - of whining.
They had thought that going through NS would have resulted in a more mature outlook.
Indeed the men are so immature that many female students choose to look elsewhere for dates.
Miss Lum Chen Jie, 22, a fourth-year communications studies student, said: 'Undergraduate guys have the mentality that the cheesiest pick-up lines work.
'And their idea of socialising is gathering around telling dirty jokes that they learnt during NS.'
Even if relationships form, the male undergraduates get a very low rating.
And breaking up is hard for them, if the women are to be believed.
Miss Angeline Tang, 20, an third-year accountancy student, said: 'There are guys who will 'die' without their girlfriends when they quarrel or break up.'
It affects their work, and often the men will demand sympathy from their project mates.
Still, Miss Jaclynn Seah, 21, said the women were also to blame.
Said the third-year communications studies student: 'Some friends of mine clean their boyfriends' rooms and do laundry for them without being asked.'
Against this, however, is one last factor. Many of the women said that they expected more from men who were, after all, older than they: Typically, a first-year male undergraduate is - at21 - two years older than his female classmates.
Older, but certainly not more mature. Never mind wiser.
Quipped Miss Huang Xiaojing, a 22-year-old recent arts graduate: '(It is) probably because they hang out with younger girls.
'That's why they have to accommodate the girls' maturity level.'
Friday, May 27, 2005
just reached home from mc chalet..guess it came at the right time, finally 2 days of pure relaxation and kept my mind from work. haha..Had a great time with the rest, esp the horsing around in the waters, and the drinking game haha!
great chance for us to bond further, hee, i had a lot of fun with giang giang and min min. Glad jerry and don came down. Happy for donny heh..
nice little chat with soozie, stevie, and ning ning on the last morning before we checked out. Shared with each other some issues of the past, which wraps up some of the things kept in my mind for quite some time.
Enjoyed myself thoroughly haha, now i m much more re-energized! :)
Wednesday, May 25, 2005
Havent blogged in quite some time, partly coz my computer at home faced an internet connection prob, and partly coz i have been so so busy and caught up with arts camp preparations.
havent slept very well.
havent ate very well.
tired,
but yet
excited.
Before i know it, it is 12 days to pre-camp, and 26 days to Arts Camp.
Within a month, everything will be all over.
The period for me now feels like the calm before a storm. Like what Gandalf told Merry in Lord of the Rings before the orcs mount their attack on Gondor.
Everything is more or less settled, except for House ICs and mini-bash.
John F Kennedy once said that "Leadership and learning are indispensable to each other."
How true.
I used to think that i knew a lot when i ran for MC last year, but as time passes, i realize that there are so many things that i didnt know. And as part of the 25th MC, i m learning too as i go along. And it goes the same for Arts Camp as well.
I dun deny that there are a lot of things which i dun know about, but yet as the PD, i have to maintain a strong image in front of everyone else, if not i run the risk of losing the confidence of my com members. Many of them are seniors as well, which means they have the advantage of experience over myself, having been thru previous camps and knowing how things can work "safely".
Sometimes people see me at one corner, brooding, looking angry/frustrated and thinking to myself. The truth is that a lot of times during these moments, i am not angry with any particular person, but rather, i am angry with myself as to why i couldnt have provided better guidance to my com members. A lot of times, i realize that it is because i do not know enough, and that is what makes me frustrated, becoz as the pd, i should always have answers, but yet sometimes i dun have them, or i need a longer time to come up with the answers. This greatly irritates myself.
i set very high expectations for myself both in work and in life. Maybe thats why i often get disappointed when i cant reach them.
it is also very disheartening when i hear people complain that i put too many mc members in my organizing com. From the offset, i have my reasons, and i still stand by those reasons today. Reasons which i feel there is no point writing in my blog and telling others, as long as i know myself. My original plan was to rope in my entire Sports Cell members into the Arts Camp com, but eventually i decided to recommend all these people into O Week Com to help Xuzi instead, so that they will still stay and help.
Sometimes i get reminded about too many mc members in the O Com, sometimes i get niaoed by this fact. And yet i still have to put up a grinning face. Its making me very tired sometimes. Whats done has been done, i always dun see the point of harping on decisions made in the past.
end of the day, i am still learning. I am human, a freshman going onto 2nd year, and i will make mistakes, but whats important is that i learn from them, and i continue to believe in myself.
I miss my old life.
Sometimes i think hocky was much more chirpy and cheerful in the past.
Was looking at my old photos the other day, and realize how jaded i have seemed to be. Maybe its the hair hah.
Monday, May 16, 2005
My dad 's company van was stolen when he just left it alone for bout 5 minutes. Damn. Somemore hard to claim insurance.
Other than that, i have been quite happy recently. Lots of things to look foward to and time with old frenz. Soccer every sat is shiok haha.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
no more mahjong for me in the next few weeks.
Time to focus.
Wednesday, May 11, 2005
haha, when i m so damn busy, i realize i cant find time to blog, and even when i do, i find i dun have the mood, unlike during exam period coz one just feel so xian and need to let steam come out.
hmmmm....could this mean that when i m happier, i blog less??? *ponder ponder*
A chapter in my life finally closed yesterdae, and i m glad that i am finally moving on for real and for good this time. Had a chat with joy yesterdae, and i m glad that we finally cleared up the issues between us and were frank to each other. We are still friends for sure :) haha
A lot a lot of things to be done for Arts Camp. But i m still sane and well alive dun worry :p realize that there's ippt on my reservist dae, which means i got less than 3 weeks to train for an ippt gold! duh..thats a difference of 200 bucks man.. between gold and silver...Amuses me when i think of some of the rest who prob might not even survive running the 2.4km, esp those working all the way after ORD. haha, like ernie...heh
Sunday, May 08, 2005
since exams ended, it has been non-stop action all the way. Mahjong, dota, soccer, pubbing, chilling out, (clubbing not yet). So packed that i sleep even lesser now than during exam period! haha, but i promise to give myself a few daes of good solid break before starting work again.
i m glad to see all my old frenz and different groups of frenz the past few daes. Pple like siwei, ronald, johnny. My chinese high mates as well. Yeah we had such a great time playing ball todae haha, all the chinese high faces. Secondary school really does shape greatly a person 's character and type. I realize that everytime when we all play soccer, that we are all v similiar haha. I dare say a lot of chinese high guys are very sincere people, thats why they make v good frenz.
Been spending a lot of time with my friends. I m going to take some time off for myself todae. Have a good sleep and rest, and come back sharper and refreshed for everything. :p Still have a chen shui bian gathering next week, and prepare for my oac frenz gathering soon haha.
I have been thinking a lot about certain things in my life, asking myself a lot of questions. The answers though, doesnt just lie with me alone.
Somewhere on an aeroplane a man is trying to open a packet of peanuts.
Monday, May 02, 2005
haha, what a shock just now.
when i woke up from my nap, i didnt see anyone around in the living room. My brother's room was closed, so i assumed he's prob back from his outing and sleeping in his room. Went back inside my own room, propped onto my bed, and continued to mug my marketing shit.
So i saw my brother walked out of his room, and told me that he had bought my turtle food for him. Continued studying.
Then i suddenly saw a girl standing at the entrance of my room. WAH PIANG shocked man haha. Then my brother introduced her to be his girlfriend. hahahaa, in recent weeks i have been suspecting that he's attached (with all e late night hee hee haa haas over the phone and what not) . But was a real surprise to see her todae man.
Anyway things werent helped by the fact that its examination period, so our house or specifically our rooms looked like warzones, with books, notes, papers and all that shit all over the place.
Happy for them haha. She looks like a nice and sensible girl on first impression. We didnt talk much, only said hi. My brother's always been a very nice and caring gentleman haha, so well, she's got taste. Think she 's the one who's a strict Christian my mum mentioned about last time.
Point to note for all you drivers out there (in case u pple dunno): Let say if you are driving on the road, and u suddenly see the car in front of you flicker the headlights continuously high beam low beam, beware. Normally it means Traffic Police check ahead. Either that or got accident occured and signalling you to be careful. But most of the time its TP check lah.
