Memories...
Saturday, August 27, 2005
the new 26th mc-elect has come in finally..i honestly see a lot a lot of potential in this new com, and i m confident this com can go far..i cant wait for rop camp too..becoz everything points towards rop, and i m sure the new com will start to find its own identity soon..with the help of the 25th of course.
soccer on thurs was great, a good workout and gave my mind a good break.
spurs vs chelsea tonight, i have a feeling that its going to be a hell of a crunching match, esp with davids VS makelele yoohoo! Too bad i ll have to miss it though, coz of work. At least i can catch the united match tom night.
My Apple baby ibook is great..everydae i learn something new about it, and its really good to use after u get the hang of it..so much that windows seem not as "invincible" as before...
Much to look foward to in the coming week...
"The big question is whether you are going to be able to say a hearty yes to your adventure."- Joseph Campbell
Thursday, August 25, 2005
so many things happened over the past 2 daes..Lots of thinking, talking..thinking and talking again..
lots of things which i realize i need to learn..
lots of emotions which i have been going thru...
lots of feelings...
lots of thoughts...
lots of rising and falling hopes...
sometimes i dun even know who to trust anymore...
perhaps at e end of the dae,
i shud just follow my heart.
and may it guide me to where my true destiny lies.
Give me strength.
Tuesday, August 23, 2005
i love my job at paradigm! :) as i have mentioned a lot of times, every week something interesting happens.last sat also..i was walkin around when suddenly this malay girl stopped me. She asked me whether anyone can also access the pole at the dance floor. I replied with a "sure", and tot it was kinda a wierd question. I walked off then..thinking and thinking..i just felt funny why someone wud ask this kind of question..so after a while, i went back to find her and probed further.......Me: "So how, didnt go up the pole in the end?"Her: "Nah, i hang around poles so often..and its part of my job"Me (feeling even more bewildered): "What do u mean by its yr job?"Her: "Oh, i work as a part time pole-dancer..but dun tell anyone k (cheeky look)"Me (surprised but trying to act composed): "Oh i see..thats an interesting job, and nothing to be paiseh about.."Yup, so it turns out that she works as a part-time pole-dancer at one of the bars in Joo Chiat Rd. She was at paradigm for e first time coz of her fren's birthdae, and they were kinda celebrating so she didnt work that night. Real friendly gal. We exchanged contacts and she told me too she does private parties, bachelors' parties, birthdae parties etc..at $150 per performance i think. According to her, the market rate is bout $2oo but she charges lower..So if any of my dear frenz wishes to get her to do performances or dances at parties etc can come and find me yeah..i can arrange for uoh, and btw, her name's kinda exotic.. Laisy Lizzy..hmmmYah man, i think i realli love my job. Its not everydae that u can get to befriend pole-dancers ya know.. :)If we wait for the moment when everything, absolutely everything is ready, we shall never begin... -Ivan Turgenev
Saturday, August 20, 2005
yep, the locks and hair's gone..Sad? Definitely..its like a part of me for so long..and i m still getting used to my short hair..i havent cut so short for almost a year? Maybe i lost a bit of that bengness and bad boy look, but hey, hair can always grow again yeah... Inside of me, i am still very wild and bad hahaha..I have a new addition to my family. Now besides my wife, i have a baby as well haha! Yup, my laptop is finally here todae, and i m bringing it with me into bed tonight. Guess i ll take time to get used to the apple ibook..anyway its the cheapest good com around, and i dun realli have much money to purchase other more ex models..in any case, it ll be good to learn a diff Operating System from Windows...Life is about adjusting to new changes eh.. :)tom is my weekly soccer match dae with my chinese high frenz..and i m looking v much foward to it..last week's session made me realize that i lost quite a bit of stamina and v rusty with the ball compared to last time..went sports bash yest night..haha..wow must say their pegeant contestants are really hot..went there with some of my sports camp og mates to support edwin, our ogl, and to support Sports Club as well..the music was good, and the place was not bad..lots of eye-candy around too..glad to know that puay cher's running for Sports Club mc vice-pres..She's a damn zai and capable person.Haha..but i still prefer Arts Bash..i guess its becoz i know most of the people and at the end of the day, its my home lah..sometimes e company matters a lot a lot more than anything else.You see things and say, "Why?", but i dream things and say, "Why not?"
Thursday, August 18, 2005
ARTS BASH 2 was absolutely great. The music, the people, the pegeant, the venue, the Organizing Com :) great job Mary, i m sooooo proud of you. Do u realize how much u have grown?? Realli.. it feels so happy to see you doing such a great job. *pat yr head*
a few of us were talking..that we cant believe it that one year has just passed like that...it only seems like yesterdae when me, alex, suzi, and chonghan were at Newsroom Bar exactly one year ago..doing bouncer duty for the pegeant..I rem that night man utd took on blackburn, and Alan Smith scored a last min goal..To remind myself of this special occasion, i decided to wear the same black shirt which i wore one year ago.. :) and i rem walking with Joy out of Newsroom Bar sitting on 2 tables talking bout lotsa stuff..
realli..realli hard to believe..one year..just like that. Sudden flood of memories..some good some bad..mostly good though...it only seems like yesterdae though that i was getting ready for the first dae of Arts Camp..getting ready for the influx of freshmen coming in..getting so excited..now before everyone knew it, Project 6 is over....
And what a hell of an experience it was. Surely without a doubt the best memories of University life.
I guess the feeling is gradually sinking in that most of us in 25th are stepping down soon..looking back, i feel a huge enormous sense of satisfaction and achievement..We were a very strong com, there is no doubt about that.
On a personal note, i am so glad to see that i have mostly achieved what i set out to do when i decided to run for Sports Director in MC last year..Arts Open..Bike Quest..Beach Volleyball..Futsal Open...IFG recruitment drives..Sports Cell's own singlet..Artz Jog...Hosting IFG Soccer....
Each of this project means a lot to me..and i m glad to see that there was a genuine vast improvement in Arts Club Sports Cell. When i took over, i rem having this feeling that Sports Cell could do so much more besides just Arts Open, Beach Vball, and IFGs. Granted, there is certainly a lot of room for improvement, but i m glad that i have at least managed to lay down a lot of ideas, plans and projects which future Sports Directors could hopefully expand on. Gaining a lot of IFG team captains, athletes' contacts wud be good for the future too..
Reaching out and bringing in others into Sports Cell and Arts Club was also one of my prime objectives..and i m glad people like don, clement, tanny, kumar, song kwang, james, jerry, elson, justin, sylvia stayed on for so many other projects and key roles in FOP as well...managing a sub-com or cell was a very new and different experience for me..something which i didnt grapple with very well initially..at the end of the day, i am grateful to these people for giving me the chance to lead them.
Justin once told me that he felt very bad bout skipping certain Sports cell projects, and thats why he insisted on comin back durin Futsal Open to help out. I still rem what he told me till todae, something very very encouraging....
And of coz, how could i have survived without u Mary.. :) haha, thanks for everything, realli..absolutely everything. We made a happy and fufilling combination together yeah? Walking with you together in this journey has been wonderful..early on during our term, i felt i had to drag you along..but now, u realli are flying like yr fave butterfly yrself..you earned a lot of people's respect along the way :)
Sometimes i realli wondered how i survived the hectic past year..but looking back realli..u could say everything was worth it....
workin at paradigm again on sat..every week something interesting happens..either i get picked up by fat girls or police raids..but i like the staff there a lot..e bartenders, bouncers, captains are all very friendly people..it helped that mondae 's my free dae..so i can afford to work on sats and rest on sundaes..
tonight is the last night i have long hair. I m kinda sad in a way, becoz i realize that i realli love my hair a lot, and they have been with me for almost a year as well..Tom morning i ll be cutting it, and makin a fresh start..Yup, kinda sad..
i heard from some of my freshie friends that someone dedicated a song to me on yes933 2 nights ago, and didnt leave any name..if u are reading my blog now, i just wanna thank you for that..it was a v sweet gesture, and my regrets that i couldnt hear it for myself.
Monday, August 15, 2005
arts bash ii. forbidden paradise.The When : 16th August 2005 (Tuesday) From 8pm till late. The Where : Club Momo, @ Central Mall (Old SOS) The Price : S$14 (presale price), inclusive of 1 free drink.Come on down for our arts bash where the most happening are seen! An event where nothing but the most happening is heard, seen, and experienced -- from the club itself, to the music, to the pageant, and amazin' drink promos! Complimentary Drink & Goodies @ door for 1st 300 b4 10
1-for-1 (jugs & glasses), and shots @ $5 from 8 till 1am
30% off all drinks after 1am
RnB, hip-hop, plus top 40s whole night!!Also, make yourself part of the voting crowd to determine Mr and Ms Arts from our 4 pairs of pageant contestants, and witness the efforts they've put into this competition!That's not all. Check out for yourself what other surprises are in store for you @ the bash itself!
arts bash ii. forbidden paradise. your outlet to real clubbing fun before the tutorials start.
Another project proudly brought to you...
by the NUS Students' Arts & Social Sciences Club-----------------------------------------------------------------------------------------------
Get yr tickets from me yeah... :)
Saturday, August 13, 2005
The 3 words which made a lot of sense to me todae:
"Organization above self."And the sentence which set me thinking for a lot:
"At the end of the day, if you have to sacrifice yourself, your own time, your own interests, even part of your own life...for the sake of others and for the club, you will and you must do it."Thank you for yr encouragement todae. I needed that.
Wednesday, August 10, 2005
REFLECTIONS ABOUT RAG 2005.......wow..i have so many things i want to say about Rag, and i dunno where i should begin..All through the past few months, it was personally very very hard for me to juggle between O Week and Rag..A lot of times i felt very bad when i m enjoying myself at O Week while at the back of my mind, i knew that there were a lot of people like Jianwu, Keyou, Fiona, Jasmine, Alvin, Reuben, Lionel, Rachael, Gerri, Yuimin, Benedict who were suffering at the Rag house. So i try my best to go down and help out when O Week debriefing ends, but the problem is that most of the debriefings ended very late. And by the time i reach the House, it was oredi v late or i was dead tired, or i had to help my other O Week com members with the next day's stuff. I fell sick on Flag Day when i had a high fever, when everything just took its toll on me.And to be frank, throughout the past month when i started going down regularly for Rag, there was always an internal struggle within myself. I was always asking myself whether i was a real Ragger, becoz the truth is that i am not a dancer, and i am not a very good tech person, nor am I a full-time Ragger due to O Week commitments. A lot of times i was only down there to talk cock with the people there, entertain them, sometimes buying supper, keep the real techies company...But when it came to the last 24 hours of Rag, my god, everything, all the hard work, was worth it. It was tough working throughout the night to meet all the deadlines and till todae, i still found it hard to believe that i pushed the JING SHAN (GOLDEN MOUNTAIN) all the way from the Raghouse to SRC. And then staying on to help push the float in the actual performance..My god, Jianwu was right. All those months of preparations for just 10 minutes of presentation may seem stupid to others, but they will stay with Raggers for the rest of their lives. I cant believe the atmosphere there and then realli...and being a part of it was really a wonderful wonderful feeling. Those 10 minutes make everything, everything worthwhile...the blood, sweat, mosquito bites, and tears.You always hear the term "Be Raggerfied" around, but to me, that term really meant something on Rag day itself. I remembered that while Arts was awaiting its turn to push our float in to present, everyone took a picture together, and Jianwu wanted us to shout "Be Raggerfied!!", which we did. It was at that moment, that moment when i opened my mouth to shout that phrase, when i truly realized that yes, i am god damned Raggerfied as well, and i am bloody proud to be a Ragger. It was on Rag day itself, when i finally finally understand why every year people come back to be Raggers. You look at all the faculties and halls' dancers, techies, and cheerleaders..Rag means so much to these people, and it was touching, really really touching.You have to do Rag to truly understand what it really means. Just coming down for 1 or 2 times wont work. At the end of the day, Rag is about hard work. One needs to come down for an extended period to really really understand Rag.After our presentation, Keyou went to one corner and cried. Four years he told me, four years of Rag, and this is going to be his last. He couldnt stop crying, and after working with him for the past month and getting to know him much better, i have absolute respect for this man. For goodness sake, he is going on to year 4, he could have just went on an internship or get a job, forget about Rag and let it suffer, but he chose to stay on, and guide it through. I used to hear some negative stuff said about him, but after working with him in this Rag, i totally salute this man really. Rag means so much to him..and i have always admire people with a lot of passion for their dreams.You see Arts Club seniors and oldies such as Jianghao, Ridz, Sean, Haoran, Big Ben and so many others coming down to help out before Rag day...it was fantastic really.i cant thank people like Jianwu, Jasmine, and Keyou enough for giving me the chance to be a Ragger, and to experience the highs and lows of Rag. It has made my FOP experience this year a much much much more complete one than last year, and the truth is that u cannot understand FOP totally until you have been thru Rag, really. At least thats what i feel.I am oredi beginning to formulate plans for Rag for next year oredi. Science fac has shown that the stranglehold by Bizad can be broken, and if they can win, why not Arts. In fact, Arts fac won in 2002 if i m not wrong..Big Ben, Jianghao, and Ridz were wearing their Championship winning year T-shirt when they came down on Rag day.Jose Mourinho once said that to be champions, you have to first get the players to believe in themselves. If we do not convincingly believe that we can be champions, we will never win.Arts RAG will rise again. I am determined to make it happen.
Tuesday, August 09, 2005
REFLECTIONS ON ARTS O WEEK 2005......school starts for me officially tom..and i intend to use todae as a good rest day, and a day for me to reflect on O Week and Rag...before that HALO xiao xian xian!! (if you are readin this), and wah, i didnt know people like Marinos, Soph, Jackie, Michelle, and the freshman from Taupok read my blog..i m not v sure i know you guys (i wud like to though haha) but in any case, thank you all for defending Steven and Arts Club. Joey and Timmy too... :) anyway back to O Week 2005.....O Week this year was a mixture of feelings for me..frankly i didnt really enjoy myself in the O Com, and i was very angry with Xuzi for certain things. But on Sunday night he asked me out for dinner, apologized for what he had done wrong, and promised that he would learn from his mistakes. That, to me, was enough to dispel all his mistakes, because he had the courage to admit that he was wrong in certain things, and he was willing to lower his pride and mend ties with everyone in the com. I believe too, that he would learn from his mistakes and become an even stronger person after this project.At the end of the day, we are all humans and we will all make mistakes. I made many mistakes with my Arts Camp as well, but whats important is that people learn from their mistakes and not commit them again. Knowing how to forgive and forget, and not bear grudges is what will keep friendship alive. Me and suzi were both sad that work had to come between our friendship during O Week, but at the end of the day, when the moon sets and the sun rises, we are still great friends who have been thru everything since we knew each other. We all learn.On a brighter note, it was heartwarming to see the freshie councillors rise up to the occasion. This year i felt we definitely had better freshie councillors compared to last year. I had a lot a lot of fun and laughter with Satay councillors. I rem this particular dae during FIC very well, when Satay went back to LT10 to rehearse cheers and prepare for the finale night performance. The freshie councillors were so ra ra and onz on their own that all the oldies like Weiliang, me, Fangling, Leon, Yuyan, Bianca only needed to sit down at one corner and watch them. Its kinda like auto-pilot u know. We didnt have to do much anymore becoz we knew that the freshie councillors can do it on their own liao. To me, it was kinda a great feeling to have.And this was one of the reasons why i have decided to re-run..Seeing all the new freshies with so much passion in their eyes and fire in their bellies, reminds me of my own self 1 year ago. As a senior now, i feel very much to want to guide these new blood along in the right direction, to encourage them to run for MC and allow their potential to be fufilled, to train them well and do something for Arts Club in return for the wonderful FOP and memories that Arts Club has given them. It would be sad to see all this talent being untapped or simply left to languish in the Central library. There are a lot of freshies with a lot a lot of potential who i believe will become great MC members under the right guidance.I m glad that O Week '05 washed away my not-so-good memories of O Week' 04, when my previous OG all siamed and on finale night last year, i only had 4 or 5 fresh freshies, which was a personal disappointment. This kind of thing sometimes depend on luck as well, whether you get very onz freshman in yr OG, and which is some thing that is beyond the control of the O Com.I m glad to to be SARSI this year...and i love them..really.My best memory of O Week '05, there were 2 actually. The 1st one was when it was announced that SARSI won the fashion parade. Initially i was worried during the dressing up coz our OG dun seem very onz bout the event and Anders, our key model, was feeling very paiseh. I had to try my best and keep pushing them and pyschoing Anders. In the end when we won, the happiness, spirit, and bond that the OG felt was undescribable realli..it was a wonderful feeling. Just like how Rita won last year's parade with her SUPER COWGIRL performance, this kind of honour will stay with the OG for a long long time. Outsiders reading this may think that what i m writing here seems dumb, but really, you have to experience it for yourself to understand what what i m talking about.My 2nd best memory of O Week, and one of the most heartwarming moments in my life, was at the end of Finale Night, when the whole of SARSI (after being declared best Satay OG) ran down the stairs, surrounded me, and started cheering for me. I think they were afraid that i was going to cry haha but nah, i wasnt going to..It was very sweet lah realli..and i couldnt thank them enough for this. One of my biggest regrets during O Week was that i couldnt spend enough time with my OG and my house people, but i had to put O Com commitments first. i love Sarsi realli..and i know this group of people will still keep in touch and stay together even when school starts. I still believe what i believe on the first day of O Week during ice-breakers, that Sarsi is the best one out of the 16 OGs. Memories of Sentosa Day (when we went through all stations undefeated and winning everything my god!), Rush Hour, FIC, dinner at Blooies, movie outing, finale night..will all stay with me.Thank you all again, and cheers to all these new friendships!! :p
TO ANONYMOUS AGAIN:
i think the tribe has spoken. And i think enough has been said to dispel all your comments about Steven. I have bad news for you though, becoz i know who you are oredi. Good luck to you. I suggest you apologize personally to the parties you lambasted so "courageously" by Wed 6pm.
If you have the guts to talk big and slam others on a computer screen, let me see whether you have the guts to apologize in reality. If you still feel that you were treated unfairly, then go to Steven and have a heart to heart talk with him, which i feel u still havent done until this day.
Your deadline is Wed 6 pm again. If you refuse to account for your irresponsible actions, then be a man and get ready to face the necessary consequences.
Monday, August 08, 2005
TO ANONYMOUS,
I dun think you really know whats happening. If you had been around during O Week, you wud know that i was never a 'yes' man in the com. In fact, i disagreed with certain things that were done and i made my disagreements known to the relevant parties. If you say that i was a 'Yes' man for the past year in MC, who are you to judge? You can check with my fellow MC members. And i dun see anything wrong with listening to my President Steven by the way. I dun think you really know us very well.
Do you realise that its no point saying so much without identifying yourself? Why dun you identify yourself and then voice out yr grievances openly? You sound like a very anguished person with a lot of vengeance. I wud like to know what has the club done to make you feel so angry that you wud say such stuff on mine and Alex's blog. You mentioned that you have "contacted the proper channel to express the irregularity in this 25th MC". Perhaps you wud like to elaborate what channel u were referring to?
You wouldnt want others to come onto yr own blog and say nasty stuff about your own friends correct? I dun think its very fair to the people u mentioned, who cannot defend themselves against yr words.
Sunday, August 07, 2005
I have noticed that someone has been posting wierd remarks on my blog. I chose to ignore them coz i feel that i shouldnt be bothered with someone so childish, but this time that person (whoever u are, and i guess you are reading this) has gone too far.
Its sad to know that in Uni we still have this kind of childish person. Man i think my primary 6 tuition kid is even more mature than you. People like you will never be respected for resorting to such underhand means. If you are unhappy about something, come to me personally, come to Steven personally and clarify what you are unhappy about. Going around other people's blogs and posting damaging remarks shows what kind of despicable and lowly person you are. Get a life for goodness sake.
If you are trying to sow discord between the 25th MC or trying to damage the reputation of Arts Club, i suggest u can stop wasting your time, becoz we will not allow you to do that. Steven is my good friend and mentor, and he is a good friend of countless people around, becoz he takes care of everyone. People have eyes to see that he has been a great President, and whatever a nameless twit like you say wont make any difference.
Be a real man and stop all this nosense. I will appreciate it if you stop reading my blog, becoz this blog is meant for my friends and for myself, not some form of propaganda tool for an idiot like you.
I pity u too, becoz for someone to have to resort to such means, i guess u are kind of a lonely person without true friends and having too much time on your hands.
Wednesday, August 03, 2005
i m fucking pissed. And its definitely not becoz of my fucking fever.
Its an accumulation of so many things, and i know i m not the only one.
