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Friday, September 30, 2005

I m in the middle of a ps lect now..hah, i told myself to concentrate on the lesson, but in the end i end up blogging now, coz i m in a blogging mood haha..

this entire week i decide to dedicate it to my fren bobby...i wanted to spend as much time as possible with him, to listen to him and iron out the issues which i felt he had long wanted to tell me, but didnt. The past 4 daes i have slept with bobsie literally every night haha..and i m glad we talked things out..the truth is that i felt i was always there for him, and always there for the rest of the com..the thing is whether those with problems were ready and willing to talk to me.

todae is the 2nd official week of my term. I was telling bobsie that ever since the day i decided to re-run 2 months ago, I havent had a peaceful night of sleep. Every morning when i wake up, I felt that i havent realli slept at all somehow. I feel very guilty that i have missed Chen Shui Bian outing, missed my primary school friends gathering, havent organized an outing during the mid-term hols for my 26th oac friends, havent kept in touch much with my Sports Camp friends, couldnt make it for my Hwa Chong buddies soccer sessions, and when Xiaofen ask me just now whether can go for Sarsi outing next mondae (and reminded me that I havent been joining them much), i had to think very hard before i reply....I miss my old friends a lot, but I always tell myself that i will make it up to these people in future.

I havent been jogging much for the past 3 weeks as well, and i cant stand it when i dun exercise..i ll feel very uneasy and unhealthy haha.. and i m goin for my ippt tom morning..hah

At least my financial troubles are temporarily shelved..i had to fork out $380 for my annual bike insurance, $250 plus for new suit and attire the past few weeks. I have to work very hard during saturday nights plus giving additional tuition..in fact i m thinking of working on fri nights as well at paradigm, to earn more money for backup Arts club funds. Doesnt help that my dad is making a lot of noise bout the payment of my university fees again. In fact, i am seriously thinking of sticking to just a 3 years BA degree. I ll rather my brother study hard for the 4 years, becoz he s more of the diligent type..i know he wont waste my parents' money if he pursues honours. I dun want to take my dad's money studying for another year and then see his black face. I rather use that year to get a job and working experience.

haha, btw to my friends out there..when i blog, it doesnt mean that i m necessarily sad or upset..sometimes i just need an outlet to let my thoughts flow out..

a lot of people still want to see the old, happy, wild, fun-loving, and cheeky hocky back again. To these people; dun worry..i am still, and always the old, happy, wild, fun-loving, and cheeky hocky deep inside my heart. Its just that this period is an adjustment period for me after some of the tough times i have been thru recently..

But..i know myself....there are some things in me which i know will never change..and i know which i shouldnt change.

WHAZZUP YO, WHAZZUP YO...WO NAN EH CHA BOR SIBEI CHIO..... hahaha... :p

The Incredible Hock