Memories...
Monday, October 31, 2005
rayner is realli a very nice person...
like i said previously, i couldnt have asked for a better VP.. :)
one week on, and i m still working on my essays.. oh well, at least this one is the last one..i m glad hell week is going to be over soon.. :) the last of my sleepless nights this week..
ktv on fri night with the 26th mc was great fun..haha, i m sure there wud be many many more to comee..we are a com who likes to sing haha...and there s guanjie and reuben who are real smooth with the guitar.
i had a long chat over msn yest. Decided to explain everything, and clarify everything..There were a lot of issues involved, complicated issues. Things which were difficult to say and understand..
But i have my reasons. Wont mention them again here...
Looking foward to the new week...
Tuesday, October 25, 2005
hocky is a happy boi at 523 am in the morning becoz,
1) He has found the song which he has been looking for for quite some time. The title is "Most Girls- Cant take me home" by Pink..yay..always cant rem the title
2) He is listening to "Don't Cha" by the Pussycat Dolls, a song which always pysches him up into the groove.
3) He just cleared a lot of Arts Club admin stuff and emails which have been at the back of his mind.
I can close my clubroom cupboard!!!!!!! Never tot i ll live to see the dae when all the cupboards are closed, but i just did. Gosh. When i shut the two sides close, i could hear the long creaking sound.
hahaha~
wah biang i didnt sleep the whole of last night, was chionging my history essay all the way, and i am glad to report that...........
1 DOWN, 3 TO GO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! YAY!!!!
lets see...
1 x 2000 words Public Administration Essay due wed
1 x 40% Dynamics Mid-term wed
1 x 2000 words Intro to IR Essay due fri
yeah man, i am packed to the brim, but i know at the end of this week, hocky will be a really happy man haha...I WANT TO SING KTV ON FRI!!!!!
hmmm, rizzzy has got a 10000 words essay. Isnt that more than my 3 essays combined?? HAH
People once told me i am a very intense person. When i set my mind on something and i am determined to accomplish it, nothing much can stop me. This can be both good and bad. Good becoz things get done, things get pushed through, and dreams get fufilled.
Bad becoz sometimes it makes me a very impatient person, as friends who know me will understand. And when i fail to achieve what i set out to do, i can get very irritated and frustrated with myself.
So, to my dear friends out there, sometimes when i give a stressed or unhappy face, do understand that often its becoz i m irritated with myself.. haha :p
oh, and when i m doing essays and "in the zone", that often happens..
Sunday, October 23, 2005
There are certain things in life which i dun like. One of which is people who think they know a lot, or people who say a lot of stuff, but yet they don't have the guts to do or make things right. Oh, and i have a dispreference for people who do not learn from their lessons. To err is human, but yet to err and not learn from yr mistakes means there is seriously something wrong with you.
Tsk tsk.
In any case, there are a lot of things in life which are easier said than done.
Yup.
Easier said than done.
Btw,
i waited,
And waited.
Ever since Arts Open.
Ever since my birthdae.
But nothing came.
Nothing.
Till today, still nothing.
Instead i got very turned off by this comment someone made on my birthdae, a comment which i think instead of helping, made things worse.
and i was glad rayner, diana and ridz gave me some happy company that night :)
I think i shouldnt think so much about it, maybe i should get used to it, and move on. Sometimes in life, the more u expect of certain things, the more they wont come to you.
Back to my essays.....haha~
Saturday, October 22, 2005
to all those who sent me birthdae greetings, i just want to say a big thanks for simply remembering!! And that i really appreciate it. How does it feel to be 22? Great, I must say haha..As a man, you always wanna feel older rather than younger. (at least thats what i think)
Big thanks to Rayner, Diana baby, and Rizzy for bringing me to enjoy that sumptous meal yeah..and to my 26th for the cake and champagne after our meeting haha..really really appreciate it.
I have been very busy this week with essays, 3 due next week plus 1 mid-term. haha, but i m still very sane!! :)
Monday, October 17, 2005
There are a lot of things which i wish to blog about..but ever since i stepped up, there have been countless times when i stare at my computer screen, dunno what to type about. Either that or after i typed everything, i erased everything again and told themself to forget it. Its not the past anymore when i could blog whatever tots that were in my mind. In fact, nowadays i always have to think twice before i blog..think about the consequences of how people might view my blog entry, becoz at the end of the day, what i write in my blog may only be certain tots but not the full picture of everything. Sometimes i may
What i write in my blog will only be my side of the story and my thoughts, and in no way, representative of the MC or Arts Club. I just want to emphasize that.
I spent a lovely and cozy Sunday at home, doing the simple things in life which may seem so trivial but means so much to me these days: sleeping, resting, reading newspapers, and actually watching a vcd movie (gasp!) without anyone disturbing me.. Yup, i havent watched a vcd in months haha... Spiderman 2..actually i only wanted to watch it for the relationship between peter parker and mary jane..i still remember how happy i was when i first watched it, when at the end of the movie, mary jane finally discovered that spidey was peter parker. Very sweet. Its like this guy has so much troubles, problems in his mind, but yet he cant say it! Not to MJ, not to his friends, not to his grandma.. He has to keep everything to himself.
There was one line which struck me during the movie, and which made me think a lot..so much that i replayed that part a few times..i will write it down again..so that i wont forget it..
Oh a lot of people dunno this about me, but i actually love to collect quotes haha..i have this big list and collection of quotes with me since my jc days, which has helped to inspire me in life, and to motivate me when i m down. Quotes about leadership, friends, relationships, love, perseverance, passion, emotions..in fact, sometimes when i have a bit of time, i ll go surfing for nice quotes on websites haha...
Arts Open brought back a lot a lot of memories..and it marked the first month anniversary of 26th's term in office..i m glad it was a great success and went very well..Good start, and it is very encouraging when seniors and friends tell me that they see a great com in the 26th, and great things lie ahead for us.
Very very encouraging.
I think the 26th showed what it was capable of doing if everyone played their part together..Great thanks to all those who came down to help, both before and during the actual event.
I said a lot of memories becoz this time last year, i was the PD myself, had lotsa happy memories about Arts Open 2004, and i remembered after the event, i had a bbq birthdae celebration at East Coast where i invited all my friends..I remembered how nice Joy was to me that night haha!! When i oredi could feel that some thing's going v wrong in our relationship then..i remembered seeing my 26th oac friends coming down, and my army frenz..god i realise how much i missed these groups of friends but yet i dun have the time to meet them collectively.
I guess 21st birthdaes shud always be special eh..i m glad mine was to me.. :)
I m turning 22 today, haha..it doesnt mean as much as 21 but hey, i m happy to be growing older. Looking back from the last Arts Open one year ago, i realize i have become wiser and more sensible, and so have those people and old freshies around me like Chonghan, Suzi, Rayner, Song Kwang, Don, Clement, Min Min, Mary etc haha..
My only wish for my birthday this year is...actually i have 3 wishes haha...
1) ** **** * ********** **** ** ** ****** *** ******** ***** *****!!!
2) ** **** * **** * ****** **** *** *** * **** ***** *** **** ** ** **** **** ****.
3) ** ** * ******** ******
Thursday, October 13, 2005
........
Disturbed.
Am i pushing too hard? Pushing too much?
Am i comparing too much between then and now? Past and present?
Am i being fair?
I always want the best for others...for successors..and nothing beats having successors outdo you..
Perhaps my expectations are too high?
No..
I dun think so....
Sigh..Its going to be 4 am soon.
Disturbed.
Monday, October 10, 2005
M in bobs room as i m blogging here haha..
went for a seminar last fri bout learning how to use simple techniques to deal better with stress..was quite interesting i must say haha..learnt some stuff also..for eg, accumulated stress in a person will not only result in yr shoulders, neck, and back feeling strained, but yr butt as well. Ya, yr butt can grow bigger too if ya r feeling too stressed out.
haha, anyway, after the talk, it rejuvenated my jogging regime again..i realize how little i have been joggin e past few weeks, so that v fri night, me and bobs went for a run..and i felt damn shiok after that man!!
How things can change so drastically in a week, hah. Last sat was the busiest night at paradigm, then this sat was the most eng one..coz of muslims fasting i guess..i spent quite a bit of time playing games on my pda haha..yep, and every week looking at the bods of the bouncers always make me feel like hitting the gym the very next dae HAHAHAHA..
will blog again later..going back with bobz to clubroom
Thursday, October 06, 2005
"The challenge of leadership is to:
Be strong, but not rude.
Be kind, but not weak.
Be bold, not a bully.
Be thoughtful, but not lazy.
Be humble, but not timid.
Be proud, but not arrogant.
Have humor, but without folly."
- John Rohn
e past few days were quite fruitful for me in terms of getting to know all the various faculty presidents, Union pres, and NUSSU Exco. On Tues all of us presidents met up, and i m glad we all managed to get along well and had a lot of laughs..Danny e union pres is a very nice and warm person, and easy to talk to. I m glad, becoz i fufilled at this point of time, part of what i promised and set out to do during the internals elections:
Fostering closer ties and friendships whenever possible with 1)Deans Office, 2)OSA, 3)OED, 4)ADCC Presidents, 5)NUSSU, and all the 6)various Faculty Presidents.
With the end of the NUSSU appreciation dinner, I have completed part 5) and 6). At least for now, external relations between me and all the 6 areas have gotten off to a very good start, and i m glad about that, becoz i m positive it ll be good for the future of the club.
I m gradually easing into the presidential job, :) but i realized that it has taken a bit of toll on my personal life, and lifestyle as well..hmm, but like what i said and anticipated, when you decide to run for this position, you have to be prepared to give your all. If not, you shouldnt even be thinking of going for it in the first place. Sacrifices i make will never end for the year ahead, but i m positive that at the end of my term, everything would have been worth it. :)
had a nice chat with yuzeng on msn just now..haha..always nice to talk to old friends
Monday, October 03, 2005
I took some time off from the weekend to myself..just to clear some thoughts.
Sat night at paradigm was one of the busiest so far since i worked there..didnt help that there were onli me and another person taking orders, so at one point there was a lot of confusion over who ordered what drinks. And the thing bout working at a club is that you gotta be extra sensitive to the people there, coz half of them are semi-drunk haha..
I do enjoy working there though..and i dun think i wud stop anytime soon. On very good terms with my colleagues there, including the managers and the bartenders. Haha, the bouncers are very interesting and funny people too, despite the fact that they always put up this fierce face. You get to meet all kinds of people working at a club haha..Certainly a lot of perks, but the massive amount of 2nd hand smoke which i m exposed to kinda gives me a sore throat and flu the next dae.
Thanks Mayi, for the nice little chat we had yesterdae. :) You give me a different yet sensible and down-to-earth perspective of things, and i m sure glad that i got to know you since SLC 2004 haha! Cant wait for this year's SLC oredi heh.
I realize i have a little problem. Sometimes when i get very close to a person, I ll feel that i m losing myself, and i ll need to pull back to my personal space again.
Dr John Gray, author of "MEN ARE FROM MARS, WOMEN ARE FROM VENUS", says that:
"Men are akin to hunters, who need to retreat into their caves once in a while and spend some time gazing at the fire pit. In this period of time, it is very important that the hunters need to be left alone. Women, esp the wives, must understand that in this period where the men are in solitude and hiding in the caves, it doesnt mean that the men are angry with them.
It doesnt mean that the women and the wives themselves are responsible for anything. Sometimes men just need time for themselves, alone from their wives. The danger here is that the more the wives try to drag their men out from their caves, the more the men DUN WANT to come out of the cave. Men will appreciate it if their wives are understanding enough to give these hunters a break, and do not blame them when they eventually come out of their caves.
The truth is that more often than not, when the hunters come out of their caves by themselves, they feel refreshed, glowing, ready to love, and to give to their partners again. If they are constantly bugged or blamed by their wives during this period in the cave, they will never fully come out of their cave, and may even feel resentment, esp when the wives start saying things like "How could you leave me alone for this period!!/ You didnt message or reply me for 2 days!!/ You dun like me anymore izzit?!!/ and the worst thing to say is...
/I bet you like another girl or have another girl on your mind!!!"
When this happens, the attraction and respect which the man have for his women may slowly slowly fizzle out..Men hate to be doubted by the very women they love, and real men do not like needy women. Many times the men may not say anything, but inside his heart, resentment starts to accumulate.
So what can a woman do when her man is in the cave? Simple. Just continue with your own life, keep yourself occupied with other things, and stay HAPPY. Most importantly, believe that your man will return from his cave back into your arms. If he doesnt, he was never the one meant to be. Show how much you missed him when he was away in the right manner, not using sarcasm or despise like those statements above.
Some women never understand this for their entire lives. That is why some men never come out of their caves back to their women. Instead, they drilled a hole and went in further into the cave.
So you see, men are like rubber bands. And whoever thinks that men are simple basic creatures might want to think again. Give the space your man deserves, and you will be rewarded. A lot of times the men are bothered by issues such as work, career, friends, family, financial status, studies, and not by you. Remember that, and dun blame yourself or blame him.
Then of course, women are like waves, but that is another story for another blog..."
