Memories...
Sunday, November 27, 2005
What have I been doing since the end of exams since thurs?
haha
non-stop action..mahjong..gaming..working..exercising..
is it a form of escape hocky?
Maybe..
Have i been happy that the exams ended?
Strangely no..
In fact, it seems to me that this is the least happy post-exams for me among the 3 semesters..hmm i could still be wrong though..lotsa activities to look foward to..
sadly for me, i am no longer able to blog e way i liked in the past..so many things weighing heavily in my heart, yet i am unable to write them down.
Call up others for advice?
Pride is stopping me i think..
Dear God, tell me what i should do. I cannot find the answers. Yet i realize i must.
I am angry, irritated, frustrated, yet sad, very very sad, helpless.. but yet i cannot show e world how i feel.
What should i do?
Have i not made the first move already? Have i not??????
What else can i do?
Dear God please give me some answers...
i dun want to lose him...........
But am i being selfish when i think this way? I dun want to affect his future prospects, but yet..i want him to stay for this journey ahead, so that he ll realize why everything would have been worth it...when fop comes...when we step down at thank you dinner...i want him to be stronger..want him to grow with e rest of us..i want him to unleash the tremendous potential he has inside of him...
i hate to admit it...but i ll miss him....
Dear God, help me..please..i need answers..