Memories...
Monday, December 19, 2005
been such a busy week...slept little..
slc for me this year is more about gaining more contacts rather than fun, and strengthening the bond between all the presidents.
So many things have happened this past week...
SHF Show's finally over tonight..was glad that everything went fine...and thought of a lot of things as i rode back home..
somehow no matter how much i do, it never seems to be enough. Disappointed with certain things and certain people...
often i think of the past..and relate back to the present..when i was in others' shoes, did i feel the same way too?..d** m* f*** s**** o* c********** a* w***..
c*******, c*******. T** b**** i* m* s**** l**..f***..
Sigh..
God give me strength.
For i seem to sense it coming.
Thought about what Steven taught me in the past..can realli understand how he feel sometimes..
It has been a long day. I am supposed to be feeling relaxed and have a good rest. But i cant. My mind's wondering about certain things again. Thats the reality of my life now.
I can take work stress very well. I m used to it. But what can affect me is inter-personal relationships, esp those of my frenz, and between my frenz. A wise man once told me that i neednt feel responsible for every single thing that happened, becoz some things are really beyond my control. But sometimes i just cant help feeling responsible becoz of the nature of my job.
From the dae i stepped up till now, i have given my everything. But still it dun seem to be enuff. Everydae i think of how to make the Club greater, how to move the Club to greater heights, how to reach out to more people, how to surpass what the past batches have done, how to lay down a better future and direction for successors, how to bond the com further...
Every single damn day.
Still it dun seem to be enuff.
This is one of those nights.
I should just go and sleep.