Memories...
Sunday, December 11, 2005
came back to clubroom to settle some admin stuff after my work..yes i cant believe i m in the clubroom at 6am..hmm, to those who say that i have no proposals to do unlike you all, dun compare, becoz i DO have other proposals to do as well, just that i never say. And i have done 3 proposals of what u are doing last year at the same time :)
yesterdae (fri) was a good dae..had a fruitful meeting with Career Centre in the morning and another meeting in the late afternoon..Optimistic about certain things..
yup and at night, me, gerard, seah keng lam (che2 shen2-the god of bike) and lao da met up for kopi..and guess what? lao da s getting married haha...wonderful news..issued us invitation liao..was so happy for him man..also been a long time since a group of us army buddies met up..glad that the rest are doing well in their respective work..and we all have grown in our own different ways...
went to see jingyi's charity carolling at novena square todae in the evening...was wonderful..so proud of her and the group..given that they onli had a few practice sessions in school, and being to deliver such a standard was wonderful..and very heartwarming to witness, haha, esp when all the little kids in the crowd came foward and clap their hands..glad that the public enjoyed it as well...
ya...something struck me in my heart during that moment when they were carolling, which kept me pondering...the same feeling which struck me at the end of Arts Open when everyone was taking the mass photo..i cant define it exactly..hmmm..but nonetheless it was a very sweet and touching feeling..
maybe..maybe...its the feeling of seeing her grow as a Director, becoming stronger, and accomplishing what she set out to do and enjoying herself at the same time..? there s the feeling of bringing joy and meaning to the lives of others as well...
argh i cant pinpoint it exactly lah, really a unique feeling...but hopefully there will be many more of this unique feeling as our term progresses...
had an enjoyable weekend working over the night..sherri and jason can really make me laugh man haha..hmm..there was a scolding by our manager at the end of the night over certain issues, but oh well..part and parcel of working i guess..made me learn a few things as well..
Rode past holland v on my way back..and saw this particular shop which brought me back memories haha..dear old me used to go this shop and buy chocolate jellybeans for a girl i really like last time...haha..i rem there was this time she mentioned that she was hungry..so i rushed down, waited and waited in the morning for the shop to open, and when it finally did, the shopkeeper told me the jellybeans were sold out and i had to wait a few weeks for new stocks!!
kao, could rem how disappointed i was then haha..all these little little sweet things i used to love doing for the people i love..for my first girlfriend back in secondary school, i rem buying this blue rose (coz she loves blue roses) and rushing all the way from my house to kallang stadium to surprise her..back then she was performing and rehearsing for the national dae parade..yah..i waited from evening till midnight i think..standing at the entrance there..just waiting and waiting..was a long story and sadly i ended up that night heartbroken..
there was this other time at suntec city..haha..coz the fountain of wealth there got this laser display show where u can put up messages (not sure if the service's still available)..i was with this other girlfriend then..we were watching the laser show, when i bluffed her that i was going to the toilet, and secretly ran all the way down to the counter there to dedicate a message..then i went back up..and continue chatting with her..and all of a sudden, the announcer mentioned her name out loud and wished her happy birthdae, with the dedication on the laser display...hahaha..could rem the pleasant surprise on her face then..was so happy to see her happy then..
oh well, lots of other fond memories..but i guess those daes of doing all these stuff are over for me, at least for now. Somehow i dun have the energy of doing all these things again..haha, maybe coz my heart is hardened, or i m lazy, and i just feel that i got more important priorities in life now. Jason tells me that what i said is bullshit, and that he believes itz becoz i havent met someone now whom i really like, but i told him in return that even if i did, i probably wont even have the time to manage and juggle everything.
Sometimes u yrself may like a person at the wrong timing, sometimes both guy and girl may fancy each other, but at the wrong timing as well..
Sherri was sharing her story of how a guy friend keeps pestering her for a date, want to know where she is, how is she, why she never reply his sms, then got upset when she never reply blah blah blah..and they are not even together. duh. Fatal mistake. Seen as desperate guy. Became a woosie.
Lesson to note for guys: Never, EVER be a woosie and lose your nan2 ren2 de zun1 yan2, or your dignity as a man. Once you do that, it kills off the attraction from the opposite sex. Your girlfriend will leave you. You will be condemned into the category as "friend" and not "boyfren" material.
