Memories...
Thursday, August 31, 2006
to all who posted any comments e past few days: I just wanna say a big thanks..really appreciated all the encouragement, advice, and support.
For the 1st time in 6 years, the students of FASS will go to the polls on 7th Sept to vote for their new student leaders. They now have a choice to decide who they want in office to lead and guide the faculty. Thus, for those reading this, i strongly encourage you to exercise your votes and vote wisely.
For the 22 nominees, i have nothing but utmost respect for this group of people, who have dared to take the 1st step foward in wanting to serve others, and for striving to make a difference.
Monday, August 28, 2006
As they rained blow after blow on me...
Questioning my leadership and my faith in those under me..questioning why i left my Project Directors to do as they please..questioning my judgment..questioning why this and that happened..questioning why i wasnt at the ground level..questioning whether did i hide anything..questioning me why so many "bad" things has happened in e past 4 months when they conveniently forget all e good things we have done for e students and the faculty...questioning me how they should reply when people ask them about the "bad" things...questioning me why i never inform them this and that...questioning me of my intentions...questioning me how i could have allowed such things to happen...
Implying that i have "mudded" and "stained" not only the club, but also the fac..
After all that i ve put in to build up everything.
Doubting me. Mocking me.
I bleed and bleed.
What did i do to deserve all this?
Tears cannot wash away the pain, the injustice, the disgrace, and the dishonour that i felt.But if tears can salvage whats left of my tattered soul, then let the tears flow.
Everyday i feel energy from my life being sucked and drained away. Indeed i made the right decision to retire from everything after sept 26th.
As i head towards the finishing line of my term, it is as if vampires are sucking my spirits dry. Everyday for e past 1 year, i have been on standby 24/7 with sword and shield in my hands, fending off beasts and foul fiends.
They have always taken my blood and flesh, and i have allowed them. For i know they cannot take away my soul.
But as I walked to the next king in line, i realize to my horror that my armour is growing thinner and thinner. My shield is cracked. And my soul is weakened.
But my sword is still with me, and i ll pass it on no matter what. Even if it means the beasts taking my soul along.
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Todae is 28th August 2006. At the stroke of midnight just now my heart cracked and bleed.
Monday, August 21, 2006
Hmmm...time really flies. Todae wud be the 2nd last OM of my term..Last yr this time, the OM turned out to be the last one oredi..
In fact, its just almost 1 month to stepping down le..
Yea, but the time for reflection will come..Meanwhile, i still have a lot of things that i need to settle..determined to ensure a smooth handover this year.
Thursday, August 17, 2006
"Sleeping Dragon and Young Phoenix: with either one you can settle all under heaven. With both you can settle both heaven and earth."
Sunday, August 13, 2006
On the 7th of August 2004, it was the 1st time that i witness Rag Day. I regretted not helping enough as a freshie, and I told myself then that i ll return the following year to help out for Rag.
On the 6th of August 2005, as i witness Science Fac celebrating their Rag victory and crying tears of joy, my mind was made up to run for Arts Club President. To get into a position where i can deliver these scenes to our own people, to make them believe in Arts Rag and Arts Club once again, and to bring them a sense of heavenly victory that has eluded us possibly for 26 years.
On the 12th of August 2006, we march into SRC, determined to right the wrongs of yesteryears and wash away the past negative memories. I expected tears, tears of joy from everyone. There were, especially after our performance.
But what i witness in the end were tears of bitterness, tears of anger, tears of anguish, tears of disgust, tears of disbelief. We were robbed. We were FUCKING ROBBED. We dun deserve this for all the 8 months of hard work that we had put in. It was so clear to neutrals and many many people that we deserve better.
It was the 1st time i ve seen so many friends around me cry. My heart was shattered when i heard the results, and when i see all of them around me breaking down. I was at a loss of what to say and what to do then, but yet i know i have to lift the spirits of the people around.
Lots of thoughts swerved thru my head. Where do we move on from here? Did we go wrong, and if so, where? Is this the highest peak Arts Rag can ever go? How do we start encouraging people to come back next year and fight on again? How can we improve ourselves and go 1 step higher next year? Who will lead Rag next year? Who will carry on the baton and ensure that all that we have built up over the past 2 years is continued and brought to greater heights? Can my dream ever come true?
Feeling disillusioned and tired now..will talk again...but at least 1 thing is clear to me. Arts Rag 2006 was one where as a whole, we shed no tears of regret, for we gave our best, and we have nothing to be ashamed of. We showed the world what we are capable of, and walked out of Rag Day 2006 with the respect of past seniors, friends, even rivals, and the public.
I have a friend, who is the President of another Club, and as his lorry drove out of SRC and past our float, he raised his hand and saluted us.
Friday, August 11, 2006
THE BIG DAE IS UPON US. .
THE LAST DAE OF RAG.
24 HOURS LEFT.
The final countdown has began..
Thursday, August 10, 2006
Words cannot describe my disappointment towards a particular incident that happened on mondae.
Todae was a tough night esp...due to the massive storm that almost created havoc on our float again..luckily there were a lot of people around and we managed to shift everything quickly...those who werent here wouldnt understand how we all felt..how helpless we felt as the rain seem to keep swarming in and onto our float..
2 days to Rag.
The dream still lives on.
Tuesday, August 08, 2006
1 year ago during FIC, i sat among the crowd with my freshies, looking at all the Presidents on stage, wondering and dreaming how it feels like to be seated up there.
1 year later, i am on that stage myself. And the view from up there was brillant...
Dreams do come true.
And hearing the Arts freshies cheer in UCC is something i wont forget for the rest of my life.
Pushing myself to the max.
4 days to Rag.
Saturday, August 05, 2006
Todae was 1 of the toughest daes of my term.
Grandpa still in ICU ward.
Quarrel with mum.
Friends around who are down.
Unsure of how to help them.
Feeling misunderstood for the umpteenth time.
No sleep for the past 24 hours.
Tons of admin stuff still not done.
6 days to Rag.
Todae was 1 of the toughest daes of my term.
Grandpa still in ICU ward.
Quarrel with mum.
Friends around who are down.
Unsure of how to help them.
Feeling misunderstood for the umpteenth time.
No sleep for the past 24 hours.
Tons of admin stuff still not done.
6 days to Rag.
Wednesday, August 02, 2006
Feeling better =) Grandpa went through a major operation yesterday, and the doctors were glad that it was successful. So were all of us. He' s conscious now, but cant talk yet, and still in ICU. But generally, he's better...
My speech on Orientation Talks went ok as well..i m so glad that finally the Deanery as a whole could see what the Club and the 26th has done for the past year..a lot of them came up to me after the speech, shook my head, and complimented the Club.
It was a great feeling...not for myself, but rather, i see it as another big big step yesterdae towards mending and improving ties between the Club and the Deanery..something i set out to do ever since i decided to run. And i could really feel it yest..some started asking me on their accord about Rag and how they can help..Prof Chng even visited the Rag site and the Raggers..
It really was a big big step foward yesterdae..and long may this good relationship now continue. It wasnt easy to achieve this..and i dun think anyone will ever understand the efforts and things i did to improve relations..maybe except Jianghao.
