Memories...
Sunday, February 04, 2007
I had a really really busy past week..surely my most packed week since school started..
Mondae, i went for the NTUC recruitment talk..was really quite impressed..and its quite likely that i ll try and apply for an internship with them for the hols..but the irritating thing is that i got a high-key reservist in-camp for 2 weeks in the middle of july..which is going to shorten my possible internship. Also had a history mcq test which was real tough man.
Tuesday, i had to rush my political inquiry assignment, and MNO assignment. ITs ridiculous how much work MNO expects the students to put in, esp when it is just a level1000 module. Really ridiculous man. Also finally completed my application for the National Youth Council YoungChangemakers Youth Panel, and submitted it at Somerset NYC building. I kept thinking whether i should apply for it, as i was worried that i wont be able to commit to it due to lack of time. But after Kwang ge's repeated high recommendations, i was def much more for it.
Moreover, i ve been thinking quite hard for the past week actually, and i realize that as much as i will try, studies ll never be my 1st love. For the past 1 month of school, i have tried to be a good student, and indeed i think i was. But i also realize that somehow deep inside me, i wasnt very happy. And I think my friends who understood me were right. Being an activist is always going to be my true passion and love. I have grown so used to being busy organizing events, trying to make a difference in organizations and the community, challenging myself and constantly pushing myself to limits for the past 7 years (if we include JC odac), so much that a mundane and peaceful lifestyle was never going to be enough for me. I always see myself as an adventurer. I can never stay still and content, and i yearn to explore new horizons, to challenge my mind and learn. I seldom agree with toh yong soon, but he was right when he mentioned to me long ago that when you are busy everyday, yr mind gets constantly challenged. Even though that may mean that i ll get more physically tired, but that kind of adrenaline rush is something i need and something that makes me who i am.
As such, after i submitted the form (which effectively demands 1 year of commitment from me to the Panel), I was strangely very happy indeed. I felt a great sense of purpose once again, and a comfort in knowing that once again, i am about to plunge into the unknown seeking to bash through a ray of light, just like how it has been for me during my 2 MC years. Now i ll wait for the interview and hopefully i ll be confirmed soon enough.
Wednesday, i went for the MINDEF recruitment talk, where they were looking for PS majors to be Defence Policy Officers and Defence Relations Officer. Again, i learnt a lot from the talks, but somehow the job didnt appeal to me as much as the NTUC Industrial Relations Officer becoz of the seemingly low career development prospects...
Thursday, had a group project meeting for my PS2247 presentation. Damn shitty sia, i m presenting next Wed, and i havent read a single shit yet.
Friday, well, Fridays are always a bore for me. 6 hours straight of lectures, geeze..I also took care of Princess Shuang Er, who fell sick also (damn virus seems to be still going around)
Saturday, went for a Freedom of Speech Seminar in the morning, organized by the NUS Democratic Socialist Club. Was good to meet and listen to speakers such as Perry Tong of the Workers' Party, Dr Cherian George, NMP Dr Thio-Li Ann and the popular blogger Mr Wang. Then at night, i went for Bike Quest 2007, had a lot of fun, but got a sore arse for a whole night of riding haha. It was good to see quite a number of fresh faces and affiliates helping the current com though =) And heartwarming to see that another of my Sports Cell project started when i was the Director during 25th, had been built on...
Also glad to see quite a number of the 26th helping in 1 way or another.. n_n
Sunday, here i am, typing here furiously while preparing for the 2nd leg of the Singapore-Thailand final. The 1st leg was ridiculous and a farce to me. I am rushing also furiously to finally settle the Research Guide for the SMUN once and for all. It has given me quite a number of headaches duh. Also got more presentations, homework assignments, and readings for the coming week. Indeed, 1 month of studies have reminded me once again that i dun pretty much give a fuck whether i get 2nd Uppers anymore. 2nd Lower is fine enough for me, and i ll just try my best and see how my results goes. At least i have been attending lectures actively haha. There are just so many things in life that matter more to me than just a 2nd upper, and especially after i noe what i want for my career.
