Memories...
Monday, July 02, 2007
Monday, July 04, 2005
REFLECTIONS ON ARTS CAMP 2005.......
wow..what can i say..cant be put down in words realli.
Best 5 days of my life, esp at the finale when i saw so many tears being shed and so many touching scenes. Moments like this will stay with you for the rest of your life. Kinda reminded me of OAC YLTC 2001..the 2 biggest projects and camps i have headed in my life.
i took so long to pen down all these feelings here..coz it realli took a while for everything to sink in for me, and also coz i went Sports Camp to chill out and help my Sports Club frenz for a week as a councillor.
The greatest satisfaction you can get as a PD is to see all the freshies enjoying the camp, and reaching a certain deep level of bond which will tie them across their Uni and future life. To see Arts Club full of life and spirit once again, to see new people coming in to help out and being able to reach them. To see new friendships forged, and see old friendships renewed.
To make everyone part of a family again.
Be it O Com members, MC members, affiliates, seniors, councillors, House ICs, newcomers, freshies.
I was so happy on the last dae. Becoz i realized i achieved what i set out to do and fufilled my dream. Even if there were things which could be improved on, at least i knew i gave my best and i gave absolutely everything that i could have given to the Camp.
I couldnt have thanked all the people who helped in this camp one way or another enough. Everyone contributed to the success of the camp- O Com, MC, House ICs, councillors, freshies. If anyone of you is reading this, i would just like to thank you once again.
And of coz to all my non-Arts and old friends who gave me the encouragement i needed as a human being. Some of u guys messages realli made my dae when i was down, esp from Aili, Chermaine, Kai Lee, Lynette and Jeryl.
My biggest, and possibly only regret during the camp, was the bash night. When i scolded min min. My temper was controlled and stable all the way for the camp only for that one fucking moment on that night. One fucking moment.
I opened my big mouth without being fair to her, and i made her so upset. Till todae, i still dunno how to make it up to her completely.
At that moment i thought i had to be the bad guy and take over, coz i was worried also that she might be unprepared for all the numerous drunkards creating a lot of problems.
I felt fucking terrible on the way back. Esp when i saw her so upset. And when i reached Eusoff Hall to hear Grace's comments, i couldnt control myself. I took my bike and rode off..I just wanted to be alone.
I rode to the loading bay at the forum, came down, lied on the ground, and just cried and cried. I couldnt move myself. Just lied there and let the tears flow. Smoking didnt help there and then. Drained. I felt so terrible and at that point of time, i felt like quitting and stepping down from everything once the camp is over, becoz i felt my own friend min min didnt deserve the kind of treatment i gave her, and also coz i asked myself why the fuck am i doing so much just to receive this kind of remark from my own dpd. I fucking cried till i thought i was going to die from crying.
Happened on sundae night Day Zero before the camp as well, coz of the Giang incident.
Such are the highs and lows of the camp for me.
At the end of the day, i m just glad everything came to a nice and happy conclusion. Grace wrote me a very touching letter when the camp ended which clarified things.
To see 300 people cheering in front of you, so passionate about their groups and the camp, is something which is priceless..memories which will stay with me till the dae i die realli.
Have i managed to change the lives of every single person who came for ARTSTASY 05? I have been asking myself that question everyday ever since the camp ended. And i think the answers wont be found so soon.
Raynard once told me that the success of Arts Camp can only be felt long after the camp ended. He told me in March 2005 that even till todae, 2 years after his Camp Feeeesh'03 ended, he is still asking himself whether his camp was a success.
Becoz maybe the true success of Arts Camp is valued by how much and how far the freshmen stay together and come back together as true friends for future Arts Club activities, and their future endeavors in life.
That to me, measures the real value and success of the camp.
And this will be a question i ll be asking myself for the next few years, and a question i would like my future Arts Camp PD to ask him or herself.
At least for now, i m glad that before i stepped down at the end of my term, i hoped to have managed to give Arts Club a really solid foundation to groom the next batch of leaders to take over. We have numerous talents at hand, no doubt about that, the real challenge is to convince these people to stay and take over the baton. Thats why i still have unfinished business with O Week, Rag, and e other FOP projects. To make sure we have a collective successful FOP for the freshmen.
I promised my president Steven that i ll give him a fucking great camp, i m glad i didnt let him down.
I just wanna thank everyone once again for everything deep down...all the 6 months of hard work has paid off.
hopefully the memories of the camp will stay with each and every single one of us forever :)
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