Memories...
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
Today I felt really useless, helpless and inadequate.I felt sad and tired.It ached badly. V v badly. Nothing I do seems to be enough.
Monday, January 19, 2009
UNHAPPY START TO THE NEW YEARThe other day Nydia dropped me a sms, asking me how had 2009 been for me so far.Bad. Unhappy.I have been quite down since the start of the new year. Partly becoz of work issues, which I wont elaborate.But more so becoz of my friends and loved ones.I lost Gerard, 1 of my most respected army mates, and someone whom I really really look up to. Gerard got involved in a car accident and suffered severe damage to his brain. He cant rem or recognize anyone anymore. When I saw him lying in hospital, I couldn't control myself. I cried and cried. Why him I wonder? He was at the prime of his life, and had so many things looking forward for him.All the dreams that we used to share together. All the dreams I know you always have.But I know you ll wake up 1 day bro. You are strong and u ll always be strong. I ll wait for u.To anyone reading this, I really hope u ll buckle up yr seat belt even if u are sitting in the rear seat of any vehicle. Life can be unpredictable.I miss a lot a lot of my old friends. Esp my Arts Club friends, juniors, & PS mates. I also miss old friends like Soozie, Siying, Don, Chun Kiat, Chong Han, Yuyan, Alvin, Zhixiang, bit, michelle, shifty, ah bian, C Cube gang, and tons of others. I have not been able to spend as much time with them as I would have liked. Maybe that is 1 of the realities of working life..in that u start to see less & less of yr older friends. My friends really mean a lot to me, for I ll not be who I am and where I am today without my friends, past & present. Yet the feeling of having so little time to catch up with them frustrates and dampens me greatly.Finally, my baby is down with eye infection. And not able to open her eyes fully. I have been really really worried for her, and feel so helpless. I would have loved to spend all my time taking care of her but again, there is only so much I can do given work commitments. Maybe I need a long break to give my mind some peace and hopefully CNY period can give me that. And it doesnt help that everyday when u flip thru the news, all u see is negative & more negative reports of the worsening global recession. Good luck to the graduating cohort for 2009.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
STOCK TAKING FOR THE YEAR 2008On 1 Jan 2008, this is what I said:---------------------ON HOPES FOR THE NEW YEAR OF 2008 =)Wow, after such a long post of reviewing 2007, it is time to switch my attention to hopes for 2008! As always, a brand new year promises new beginnings, new hopes, n new memories. 2008 ll be another unique year becoz:(i) I ll be graduating in May. And i ll never be seen in the Arts Club room after that anymore (sob) hahaha.(ii) I ll hit 25 meaning quarter of a century old in October 2008! Haha, but ok la, I actually like the feeling of grow old. (iii) I ll be embarking on my career (for the rest of my life) n my 1st real job. With those factors in mind, my hopes for 2008 ll be:(1) That my family, friends, n loved ones continue to stay safe n healthy.
- Achieved. =)
(2) That I continue to keep in touch with old friends even after I graduate.
- Semi-achieved....I still keep in touch with some, but not as often as I would have liked.
(3) That I continue to keep fit, healthy, n slim down by at least 5kg! (must be more specific this time liao heh)
- Bad. Fitness dropped really bad after I started working.
(4) That I can successfully attain the CAAS Honours Year Scholarship, and to enter the dynamic aviation industry.
- Didnt get scholarship, but got into CAAS. Got offer from SIA as well.
- Achieved my aim of entering the industry. =)
(5) That I can graduate in peace, throw the mortar hat, n take lotsa grad photos with oldies like Chonghan, Bobsie, Soozie, Joy, Jia jia, Yuimin, Alvin, Jianwu, Alas Ter, Swi Swi, Bian Bian, Leonie, Weida, n many many others!
- Achieved...together with tons of my Honours year buddies. Fantastic group of friends and companions for the entire year of 2008! =)
(6) That I graduate with 2nd Upper Class Honours.
- Achieved. =)
(7) That the 28th MC and Arts Club ll enjoy a successful term, and that FOP 2008 ll be a great success.
- Achieved. =)
(8) That I ll get my class 2A bike licence & class 3 driving licence (passing at the 1st attempt).
- 2A on hold. Started on Class 3. On the way =)
(9) That I ll have enough $ to get a brand new bike- the SuperFour.
- 2nd thoughts on getting new bike.
(10) That Manchester United ll win the Premier League title again, as well as the Champions League!!
- Totally achieved!! Yeah!! =) =>
(11) Last but not least, that the iron walls & heavy armour clad around my heart will begin to soften again.
- It wasn't easy to achieve this, but I did it.
- I also met... you. =) Thank you for making 2008 especially memorable and sweet for me.
I m finally done! n_n Here's wishing everyone a Happy New Year once again! And may all your hopes n dreams be fulfilled in 2008!
