Memories...
Tuesday, July 12, 2005
Something's wrong with me these few daes. First pointed out by Suzi.. I cant pinpoint it exactly also.
Feel lethargic and xian easily, even though i slept considerably a lot. I was wondering whether it is a accumulation of all the prior weeks of camp planning and activities..including sports camp.
Large extent is problems at home. I cant stand my dad a lot of times. Fucking hell last time he was the one who said to use the cpf scheme to pay my uni fees, now he kao bei change the payment scheme to tuition fees scheme. Fuck lah, give my mum, my sister and my brother problems also. Makes me feel so sick when i think about it.
What the fuck do u want really? If you are so unhappy paying my uni fees, fucking come straight and tell me in the face instead of bitching it to my mum and my sis. You were not there when i was young. You were not there when the family needed you. Sometimes i think its a miracle that i didnt end up in the streets being an ah beng when i was young. If there's one thing u taught me in life, it is to NOT be like you.
Used to say that my temper was bad, but what bout u? Yours is ten times worse. I cant even be bothered to explain to you about certain things. I ll never forget the things u said to me when i was 18.
Mum said that a master once said u ll change eventually. I wonder when that dae would come. Would u realli change???
All these things are making me so irritated at the back of my mind. Plus walloping bills from last month which i need to clear.
Thank you NA NA for that enjoyable dinner and outing just now.