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Tuesday, September 27, 2005

WHAT A MONTH......

i didnt blog for almost 24 days, partly becoz i have been so busy (seriously) and secondly, i choose to shut down myself emotionally to concentrate on ROP and elections. I guess the night before ROP was my last personal emotional outflow to myself.

The past month has been..hmmmm..kinda hard to put down in words. Definitely a very tough period for me to go thru, but i m glad i made it, and pulled through. Been ridiculed, criticized, slammed, doubted, judged, disappointed, looked down upon, mocked (even by my own friends)..Certain lies said about me as well. On the other hand, was loved, appreciated, encouraged, supported, admired, congratulated as well...So u see, it was a see-saw of highs and lows during this period.

Didnt agree with certain things being said and done by some people during this period..but i see no point in bringing them up anymore, and i rather keep quiet. Perhaps it was becoz of the very nature of the position which i was initially running for, which therefore exacted the strenous demands and expectations on me. I totally understand and expected that :)

I wud say the most tricky part of this period is being in both e 25th and 26th com, and having strong feelings for both. Seeing your own friends judge you during the entire process from ROP right up till internals wasnt easy, trust me. Leading a new com into battle at the same time isnt easy as well.

But hey, who said that a president's job is going to be easy in the first place? :)

I truly learnt a lot from this one month. I felt that i have become stronger, and perhaps all presidents need to go thru this phase to toughen themselves up mentally and emotionally. I rem Steven had to go thru this period last year as well.

I learnt that (and i seriously mean it) it is impossible to please everyone, and impossible that everyone knows what you are thinking or yr intentions behind your actions. Why? Becoz there is only ONE me, and billions of other people in the world.

With respect to the previous point, I learnt also not to take what others say about me too personally. Granted, this is something which is not easy for me to change, but i feel i m making quite a headway in this aspect. Esp like what i mentioned, people may not see your good intentions. Had i took everything said or thrown at me during this elections period personally, I prob wud have crumbled.

I learnt that humans, being oh well, humans, tend to easily forget the good things that u have done in the past and concentrate on the bad. Was disappointed at times when the past year of sweat, effort, tears and everything that i put in seem to have been so conveniently forgotten by some people.

I learnt that people always wont see what you are PHYSICALLY doing as well. That is another tricky part of being a President..Becoz in reality, a lot of things which Presidents do are behind the scenes.

I learnt that Presidents have to make unpopular decisions at times, a job hazard which comes along. Sometimes presidents already forsee the difficulties or problems ahead, but it is not easy conveying that across to the respective com members.

Perhaps most importantly, I learned who are some of my true friends, and who genuninely cared for me. I learnt that if people are your real friends, they will still stay with u, support u, care for u.. no matter which com/ school/ neighbourhood/ planet blah blah which u shift to.

I still have a lot to say, but i m feeling kinda tired now..after coming back from paradigm. Will continue again......

The Incredible Hock